building love | marco reus + erik durm

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Melanie's POV

"Mel, please, let's act like adults and talk about it. What's going on?" Marco said softly
"That's the problem! I don't actually know what's going on" I busted into tears, I couldn't hold it any longer.
"I'm so sorry, liebe. But I have to know something in order to help you. Just tell me how are you feeling" his voice was so calm that it scared me.
"I'm confused, stressed, in love-"
"In love with me, right?" his voice started to crack and a silence took over the room "Mel?"
"That's the problem..." I said in a low tone.
"Wh-what do you mean 'that's the problem'? We have been together for almost 2 years and you still doubt if you love me or not?" he said angrily
"It took me a lot of courage to tell you what I'm telling right now! So just listen up, please!"
"Okay, then. Go on. I want to hear everything. And you better have a good reason for this whole scene, you are making." he said serious
I rolled my eyes "So, I never doubted in all these years and in any way that I loved you. However, being without made me realise that I miss being by myself and being with other guys-"
"What do you mean?? Did you cheated on me, here, while I was home thinking about you all the time??" Marco said angrier than ever
"Just listen to me!" I shouted "Of course I didn't! I just felt great, even though I tried to hide it, what I felt when I was with Erik. He might looked like a creep to everybody, and in the beggining even to me, but he made me feel like I was special."
"So, he made you feel things that, with me, you never felt? Never have I made you feel special?"
"You did, but you were always so absent from my life that, even around you, I couldn't feel anything. Saying that I loved you wasn't a feeling anymore, it turned into a habit." Tears started to fall from my eyes again. "And I never asked or wanted to feel this way, but I just did. I fell for Erik"
"Since when have you felt this way?"
"Six months ago"
"Did you plan on telling me any of these at some point?"
"I thought it was something that I would feel only once, but it kept coming over and over again. I couldn't control it. And when I arrived in Brazil and Erik started to go after me I knew it was time to do something about it"
"Good to know that I was praticly dating a wall for almost a year" he said sarcastic
"I loved you! And I still do! But I just can't make up my mind. If you just give me a little time-"
"A little time for what? For you to make up your mind if you really love me or Erik? No, thank you. I will give myself some time to think if this relationship is really worth it." He said getting up and walking towards the door. "Goodbye Melanie" said closing the door.