✔DRARRY ONESHOTS

Feeling - or more like the lack of

Why is it so hard?

I want to do well.

When I was a child, everything seemed so hard, yet I was passing so easily. 

Praise came naturally from teachers and now I hardly hear it.

Sometimes I feel like I'm drowning. The stress of trying to get everything done presses down on my chest so hard that it gets hard to breathe.

I stay awake at night, tossing and turning, planning my day tomorrow, all the things I swore I would get done.

Morning rolls around and I'm up early. I feel good despite the bags under my eyes. 

I settle down to get my work done, and check stuff off my mental checklist.

But...

I haven't actually achieved anything.

I can't check anything off my list, because nothing has been done.

Another day of procrastination leads to lack of eating.

Another night, tossing and turning, planning my day tomorrow and swearing, 'I will get that done tomorrow'.

And guess what?

It doesn't.

Please tell me I'm not alone.