[Beomgyu's POV]
When is she going to come... It's my birthday today!! We promised to meet in this coffee shop or wait...DID I ENTER THE WRONG COFFEE SHOP?? No that can't be haha but one thing for sure is y/n is never late and we've been going on these dates and I'm pretty sure she'll be my girlfriend if I ask her today! Why? It's uh haha because I think she likes me and I kinda like her back.
I'll just give her a call... <Calls y/n and she unintentionally picks up the call>
"Hello?"
Y/n: yeah I got a lot of time today
"Oh it seems she picked up my call by mistake, but wait didn't she make plans with me today? Did she forget?"
Y/n: so tell me guys do you think Taehyun will agree to be my boyfriend if I confess him? I'm just so nervous...
" T-Taehyun? My best friend? Y/n likes him? But I thought she liked me-"
Y/n's friend: Eh? I thought you liked Beomgyu, you were there for him every single time so I thought you had a crush on him?
Y/n: Oh Beomgyu? He is a really good friend I became his friend because he was so kind and caring but also because I could become close with Taehyun and look! we are indeed closer than I thought and I can't believe I'll be holding hands with Taehyun this time tomorrow!!
<Beomgyu cuts the call>
Oh I see...I was never seen as a man worthy of her love just a stepping tool to find her true love...I really thought I had the chance huh? FUDGE THIS. WHY WAS I SO STUPID? DID I ACTUALLY THINK THERE WAS SOMEONE WHO GENUINELY CARED FOR ME? WHY WAS I FOOLED? WITH THIS FEELING OF BEING LOVED FOR ONCE....
I held my tears in and threw the cake that I was going to cut with y/n for my birthday in the trash can...I found a sofa beside it which was in a good condition with some scratches here and there but that was all....I wondered why someone threw it away and I was so exhausted with whatever I heard that the sofa was the only thing that felt welcoming to me.
I moved towards the sofa and took a seat, The area surrounding it was really stinking but God knows why I just sat there and started processing whatever happened so far...
<FLASHBACK>
It was a really gloomy day, me and Taehyun had a huge fight in our dorm room. I was right about what I was fighting for but everyone i.e. Soobin hyung, Yeonjun hyung and Kai all took his side...I didn't care of everyone taking his side but Soobin hyung? He was supposed to be there for me regardless me being right or wrong but in this case I really was right and when he took Taehyun's side....my whole world came crashing down as I wasn't in the best mood for the past few days. He was the one true friend I had and he wasn't there to support me even in this silly argument....that hurted.
I was really furious, so I dashed out of our dorm room as it just was suffocating there...but shit.It was raining, So I just let myself sit on a bench in the park being drenched in the rain as I just let out a sad smile and just laughed but in reality I was crying, I was hurting so bad but who can see my tears in this rain right? The argument we had might've been small for others but ....the trust I had of an only friend ... That was lost so who am I supposed to trust anymore?
Suddenly I couldn't feel the raindrops on me and that's when I looked up to see a girl holding an umbrella over my head with a smile as bright as the sun, it was really blinding. "Stop crying your friends and I were worried so much about you. I was confused and then asked, "Why would they be looking for me in fact who are you?".
She laughed at me and replied, "Well silly~ they are your friends why wouldn't they worry about you and secondly me? I'm your saviour." I was really confused and that's when I heard, "Hyung!Hyung!! Beomgyu Hyung!! I'm so sorry I didn't think you'd be this upset it was a prank we planned out for your birthday I'm so sorry I think we took it a bit too far." Taehyun panted while explaining me the whole situation and then he turned to that girl , "Oh y/n!!Thanks for finding hyung and sorry for troubling you." She just smiled waving her hands indicating it wasn't a big thing.
Now I was more pissed than ever. "KANG TAEHYUN!!! A PRANK? YOU- YOU COME RIGHT HERE LET ME TEACH YOU A LESSON." We both ran laughing towards our dorm to celebrate my birthday.
Ever since that day I noticed y/n more around me and Taehyun and there was something about her which made me so drawn to her. I really wanted to become a person like her, a person who can just by existing heal the person beside them...and her cheerful personality which just lifted everyone's mood, I wanted to be like that.
I slowly tried to become a more cheerful person who could cheer others up and become someone's shoulder who they could lean upon hoping one day I'll be there for y/n for her to lean on my shoulder. My fellow roomates remarked that I had changed into a very different person but I didn't mind it as long as this change was going to bring me and y/n close.
I think my efforts worked because y/n hangs out with me and Taehyun a lot. I really love spending time with both Taehyun and y/n. I hope we'll always be able to hangout like this forever....
A few weeks later me and y/n started going to different cafes every week to try out their menus. It felt like it was our thing, something only me and her could share in fact she told me today I'd make a good boyfriend I'm so happy!! I hope I can become her boyfriend...
<END OF FLASHBACK>
Tears rolled down my cheeks as I remembered everything it feels like the mirror called "me" that was trying to become like you has been shattered by a rock called reality, I'm falling head first with broken wings....I think I'm not ok...
[After two weeks]
Ah... I'm really tired of crying now, I think instead of bleeding painfully I'm bleeding monochrome diamonds..... I gouged out the memories of you from my heart bleeding traces of you and now I feel so free.
Little did I know I was losing myself little by little for you, whereas you never bothered about it. I felt like a fool honestly but now?I completely love this altered face of mine, maybe this feeling of broken wasn't so bad? I think I've found a new me thanks to you...too bad this good boy cannot thank you like he used to cause....he has gone bad.
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