Sometimes we find ourselves happy in life and then suddenly it's funny how within seconds, just a few words change our whole mood.We can go from being happy to trying to smile to supress our tears, from being sad to feeling safe in someone's arms, from being normal to shocked just because of the tune of the words ringing in your ear.
Emotions are something that are really hard to handle and we only get to know this once we've experienced things like love,pain, happiness or sadness. Sometimes we crave for the emotions we felt in the past maybe momentarily,but those emotions are accompanied by memories we never want to forget.In other words - our comfort place.
And so, the calendar flips and we wait to find that comfort in someone who we can spend memories with. And that someone was him, someone I could see spending eternal memories with.
It was a frosty Saturday evening, when I decided to go to my nearest café to complete my assignments and relax.I asked my friend yeonjun to come with me but he didn't even read my message yet. Sometimes it hurts that the only friend I have is so inactive online.
I grabbed my jacket and headed to the café .The café was actually quite cozy and welcoming that I immediately got to work and forgot to order anything until I had to leave the café. I was in a hurry to rush home that I forgot one of my books on the table where I was seated.
When I reached home,defeated, I thought to revisit the café tomorrow evening and get my book soon.Then again it was just a new book right?Well new indeed it was but it was given to me by Yeonjun and knowing him, he put a lot of thoughts to just choose the cover of the notebook which had a brown heart.
As much as I think,he knows I love brown and so he went with the notebook's colour to be brown as for the heart...I think he has seen me doodle random hearts on the corner of the pages of my book...which makes me smile every time I think of it... that he's so observant and caring, like what is there not to like about him?
The next day at around the same time as the previous day, I rushed to the café and ordered something first before I embarrass myself again like yesterday.The cute barista with the blonde bangs covering his face let out a small giggle as he saw me rush to the counter first to give my order.
The dimple forming on his cheeks as he smiles and takes my order made me feel embarrassing myself yesterday was worth it."And anything else ?", I was brought back to reality with his question and my mind went back to the notebook,"Uh, yeah- did you happen to see a brown heart notebook in the place I was sitting yesterday?".
He was surprised for a second and then his face turned to smiling happily with a hint of a devilish grin as he said ,"So it was yours? you must be quite lucky." He chuckled as he got the notebook out of the drawer and whispered "Do take a look inside the book, turns out you have a secret admirer." As he winks with his macaron eyes.
I give him a weird stare, and realised he could see it as well so I gave the brightest smile I could offer and went back to my usual spot and started working on my assignment, but something about reading what was written in my notebook distracted me.
And so the curiosity got the best of me and I opened the first page:
"I see I've met the owner of the book.As a specialist in breaking down the meaning of the cover pages of a book I assume you're the type to complete assignments in the café". I nearly spit out my coffee on how accurate it was."As for personality I think you are quite organised, a caring person and having a close friend i.e. if you can even call HIM that. Seeing the doodles on the back of this notebook, This yeonjun boy seems special to you."
I was embarrassed that , not only did I just forget to order yesterday, I even forgot my book and now I'm going to get love advices from someone who went through my doodles about yeonjun. I'm definitely the type who stays away from the topic of love but if I were to define it, yeonjun is the only thing that comes to mind. He always has.
