Echos of Forever (Kakashi love story)

Darkness and Kashi?

I fall back on the ground huffing and gasping for air ,I don't even know how many days it's been since I sent Minato to safety. I look up at the dark sky everything's  blurry everything hurts also,  son of bitch do I hurt . I wonder how ticked flash man was when he realized I sent him away. I sit up with a gasp  God I feel like my body is on fire,yet so light and airy . Am I dieing ? I get up with alot of effort ,come on I can do this I have to make it back to camp.Ens must have had a stroke I had to release my summoning on Aoi to focus on the enemy I faced  . With new determination I push my self to go forward.  Inari please let me make it back to camp you can have my life then but please don't let me die in this hell hole. Fuck if I had any charka left I'd certainly  summone Ceilo to help me back . I lean up against a tree panting .Damn it I can't rest now I know as soon as I rest I'm not gonna get back. All I see is Ensui Rinji  face flash before my eyes. I take a deep breath calming myself doing so had another face flash before my eyes well more like a masked silver haird man.  If I make it through this I have to ask if I can touch that hair of his. I laugh softly then gasp in pain.noted no laughing it fucking hurts. 
Ens and Ji would be laughing there asses off if they realized after all the fighting here I was day dreaming of running my fingers through a man's hair I barely know.Horny much Haven. Sheesh get a grip.i shake my head and continue to walk forward . I trip and land into a tree,everything is so blurry I just want to sleep.but I can't. "1,2,3,4,5 5,6" I begin counting my steps just to keep myself focused enough to stay awake.everytjings sorta becoming numb."565,566 ,567" I finally make it to the camp I hear gasps and someone screaming for a medic. Someone runs into me encasing me in there arms.i can't see them but it has to be Ens ." 575 " Everything starts going black,it seems so nice and  warm.how odd you would think nothing but blackness would be cold . I hear beeping,it's quiet annoying I just want  to rest in the quietness it seems so familiar. I feel smile holding my hand ,who could that be ? "Come back Ven we need you to wake up.... please.." Ven is that me ?who am I? Where am I ?   I feel someone gripping my hand tighter and I feel something wet .what is that why dose it hurt ? " Please V you gotta come back to me and Ensui we miss you like crazy not haveing you hear to yank our chain ,who am I supposed to have my mor ing coffee and ciggrete with if you don't get up,you know I can't with old man Ens he's a party pooper." I see two men's flash in the dark ,two brunette men . It hurts me I want to just want to tell them it'll be okay. Why can't I open my eyes ? I'm to tired all these thoughts have exghusted me maybe just a little more sleep ..

  I don't know how long it's been but I hear footsteps pacing back and forth,who is it this time , I've started growing accustomed to the steps and their breathing it's been rather soothing with this never ending darkness.After a while the footsteps stop  ,please don't leave yet I'm not ready for the endless quiet. I hear a high pitch beep as I try to will who evers there stay.   I finally hear different foot steps approaching, "Kakashi why are you here do you know Haven?" Kakashi? I see a flash of silver ," No I don't really but sensei since I've seen her at that camp I can't figure out  why she preoccupies my mind, I can't get those Emerald eyes out of my mind,and for some reason I have .." I hear his footsteps pacing again so soothing." I have an itch to see under that mask of hers and that's not like me sensei" I hear someone take an intake of breath, what what's going on??, someone please answer me  . " Kakashi honestly it seems like you have become smitten with her."  Crash ! "Minato sensei that dose t make sense I don't know her maybe it's lust ?" Minato? .... Flash man I see a blond blue eyed man with a kind smile , then everything changes blood screaming ,gurgling, pain fear. I Hear beeping getting louder and erratic. That's right I was in a war there was so much blood ,before I can stop it flashes start flashing before me of what happend. I want out let me out!. I don't want to see this anymore !. With a sharp gasp I sit up straight I blink several times to make the blurriness go away.

I hear a big crash and a flash of light.lighting..I flinch ND look down at my hands and arms blood..blood is all I see. I wipe my hands on the blanket why ,why won't it come off ." Hey Haven I know this must be confused g but it'll be okay.." I can't recognize who's talking to me I just want this blood off my hands I start wiped g harder at the blanket  with another clash of lighting I start crying ." Do you want us to go get Ensui a d Renji . I look up at the two men with tears spilling down my face " p..p..please ...please get it off me it won't come off please." The blond one whispers something I just start  rubbing the blanket  on my hands and arms and the blanket just starts turning red .  " Why won't it come off ?" I look up at a silver haird man crying asking the question. The silver haird man gets closer to me grabs my hand I look at both our hands I see that I'm getting red all over his pale skin.i flinch and look up at him " Please get it off me please" I begin begging him I feel him pick me and carry me brides style to bathroom I hear him turn on shower and I see steam start rising he sits both of us down in the showers I grip his flack jacket tightly  " Why won't it come off ?" I begin to cry I feel his hand envelope mine " Shh it will  trust me ,just watch the drain see its washing off shh " I listen to him he begins to  to rock gently and begin to sing

" Home is behind the world ahead
And there are many paths to tread
Through shadow to the edge of night
Until the stars are all alight.

Mist and shadow
Cloud and shade
All shall fade
All shall fade
Then world behind and home ahead

We’ll wander back to home and bed,

Mist and shadow, Cloud and shade.. "

"Where is ..."  I ignore who ever that is and lean in close gripping his hand like my life depends on it,I tuck my head under his head and close my eyes listening to the thumping and humming from him. It feels like home.  I'm almost asleep when I feel something being wrapped around me and someone trying to take me ,"Thank you Kakashi but ji and I will take over " They go to to take I flinch and grip onto this man name Kakashi tighter and whimper. I feel his hands grip me tighter , I silently pray don't let me go please. " Hand her over Kakashi. " I open my eyes and look around the room I see  two men who look familiar but I don't want to leave I feel safe.." V it's Ji and Ens were gonna take you now okay?" I look wide eyed at them  begin crying  and leaning closer  I grip this man's flack jacket till my hands turn white. I look up into his one charcole eye"Please.. Kashi "  I hear gaps and steps takeing back I hide my head in the nook of his neck he holds me tighter against him. " Maybe we should leave her be with Kakashi ,you two I doubt she even knows who any of us are to be honest she looks like she's traumatized  and trauma bonded with him  ,I'm sure once she's out of that state she'll recognize us." I hear door close and few minutes later I hear footsteps approaching me again I whimper into his neck and if possible Kakashi holds me tighter against him. " Relax Kakashi  no one gonna take her  shes gonna be okay." I feel him relax underneath me. " I dont understand sensei why do I feel like this ..I feel all is right holding her ,...but I don't know her but I can't even deny I was worried sick when Ensui told me she was going on that mission with you.and I just don't understand why.  "  I hear the blond hair man chuckle " Honestly Kakashi I can't answer you but I can tell you I felt the exact same way when I layer my eyes on Kushina and I'd do anything for that woman. Maybe you both need eachother?  She s definitely been through hell and back a few times and you may be one of the few people who can understand her, not many people can calm someone so quickly during a full blown ptsd episode.."  After a while I feel myself being re adjusted and layed in bed I  grip onto him tighter and whimper ," please don't leave". I feel him lay down behind me and pulled close. I turn around and  and nuzzle my head into the crook of his neck listening to his breathing it's very calming. I stretch my one leg by his and hike my other  over his and bring it up to were my knee is resting by his naval. I feel him tense   ,I hear thunder crash out side I flinch and whimper, " Kashi" "Shhh it's okay Angel I'm  here I got you " He pulls me tighter against him and I slowly  fall asleep.