Aperture

Chapter 17

Bridge

After I told Ronnie to leave I regretted it. I can still smell her on me. I can still taste her and even feel her hands on me. It's like being an addict. But It's too her. All those times I saw her from a far and I was able to keep my hands off her but being so close. I lost my mind. The one thing I hate more then anything is cheating and there I was getting lost in the love of my life and feeling blissful but also hating myself for knowing this would hurt Elena.

I sat on the porch for hours playing with my guitar and wrote a song I thought for sure was just the worst but River told me no matter how I feel it is I need to and it to him. So I did. Then Five minutes later I sent a text to Elena and told her to come home now we need to talk. I needed to tell her what I did. This would eat me alive.

The whole night I tossed and turned thinking of Ronnie's lips and her fingers on my back. How she just fits when I pick her up and kiss her. She just fits. I can't get myself to do that with Elena because it doesn't work. I don't want to do that to my brain. I can still smell her shampoo and her lotion on me and I found myself getting hard just thinking about how her breasts were in my hands. I got up and had to take a cold shower.

I am still insanely in love with this woman. I can't change that. But why now? Why come here now after all this time? The way she explained it. I was connecting dots I didn't really connect because of the anger and pain before. She just wanted me home. She wasn't saying forever but she was saying she didn't want to hate me with the distance.

When she said she told him no. I was laughing inside thinking back to when he told me his web of crap that she was happy. Which in return also was a slow guilt burn. I love her so much. I love her more now then I even did then.

The cold shower wasn't working and I had released the pressure from thinking of the goddess that was in my arms again just hours before.

The next morning was worse when I woke to a door opening outside the house. I got up and walked down stairs. I see Elena from the window upstairs. I walk slowly down the stairs and she stands at the door. dropping her purse on the floor. I see she is mad but I don't really know what she knows or thinks happened. So I try to be safe with distance.

" Hi." I say

" Hello Bridge." she says looking at the picture of me that Ronnie had taken. " Who took this photo?"

" Veronica May Sullivan." I say

" Bridge Hugh Kelly, are you still in love with her?" she says with tears in her eyes.

" Yes" I whisper, trying not to cry myself again. " I tried not to. I tried to forget about her. I tried to move on and build a new life. I really did try."

" I know you did." she says " You tried to mask it and make me her. I don't deserve to be runner up. I don't deserve to be tried like that because she didn't want you."

" I know." I agree with her. I follow her to the kitchen and I see her scan the room. She walks around the island and looks out the back window.

" I really do love you, Bridge." she says " But I can't do this anymore. I can't be your concession prize. You are clearly in love with her."

Now I am very confused about what she is talking about. Then it clicks. River must have sent the song I cried out last night to her. Elena has had to wipe a lot of tears from crying over Ronnie. I know her and River are close. He must have said something to her. She walks over and picks something off the floor and looks at it in her hands. Then stands up and looks at me holding Ronnies lace bra. I had taken that off. I had no idea she left it behind. I close my eyes and then she walks over calmly and places it on my chest.

" I just needed to say goodbye in person, Bridge. You're an amazing man and I will always love you but you gave your entire heart to another woman and she never gave it back. You need to go to her. She still loves you too. This house is meant to have that kind of love in it not the concession love.'' She tells me to place a kiss on my cheek and I see a tear fall down her cheek. " I don't have anything here so it's an easy split. I will just move one. You however dont be dumb. Go get her back. I don't want to leave knowing you will not be the bigger man and go get her."

" I will." I agreed and she started walking to the front door again. I follow her to the front porch as she opens her door.

" Oh and Bridge, the guy that set up the house he wanted to tell you he got the security camera working but he set it up on the wrong phone." she says smirking " I wish you loved me like that. I can't even be mad at you because I know how badly you held back all this time. Go love her."

I wave and watch her drive away. Security camera oh my god i'm an idiot I forgot all about them. That's how she knew so much. I feel the embarrassment build when I sit and run through the events and wonder how much she watched. Then I run upstairs to get dressed. I am going to go get my love back. I am not taking no for an answer again.