Aperture

Chapter 15

Bridge

It's now February, almost exactly five months from when she left me. The last time I saw her laying on the blanket in the park was the memory I hold in my mind of how she is. I get extremely small updates from Aaron and River. I still think about her constantly. I wonder how she is and if she started a new show. I miss her smell so much I went out and bought the lotion she wears just to put it on my pillow. My chest aches when I think of her.

We are home for the holidays. They gave us a week and a half to go home and recharge so I figure. I will just lay around the loft and watch Christmas movies and write songs. I knew I was getting better but I really didn't care for seeing people these days and the shows we did were not fun anymore. I was just holding off for one more month. I just needed to get to January and I would be free of he road and then I can go find Ronnie and start bringing our plans to life. I promised River January. So I will keep my promise. It just one more month of staying away. I can do that. I am already in agony. What's one more month?

What I wasn't expecting was when I went to get groceries I saw Ronnie at her Pizza place. She hugged the Owner Dale like she always did and then another man kissed her and they walked away holding hands. I stood there in the grocery store watching from the window.

" Forty one dollars and twenty cents." the cashier says " Sir! Did you hear me? Are you going to pay?"

I handed her the fifty I had and took my bags. I walked slowly home. Wondering who this man is? Why is he kissing the love of my life? Is she over me? Are they dating? Has he made love to her? Who is he? on top of all the worry, the one thing that I kept thinking was. Is she happy?

I spent the rest of my holiday on the couch watching TV and trying to get her off my mind. When I asked River to tell me who he is he told me. To go figure it out myself. That it's been long enough we need to figure shit out on our own. I could tell he was getting sick of being the middleman and Aaron was getting worried about Ronnie because she doesn't speak to her anymore. I only know this because River had his phone on speaker during one of their last night calls when he thought I was sleeping.

The truth of the matter was she moved on to someone else. I was in the dust again just waiting to come home to her.