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I dunno when I lost my mind.
Maybe when I made you mine?
- Ed Sheeran, Miss you
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Leah Renee Miller
"Mummuh! Wa dat?" Darcy asks gripping my hand a bit tighter and pointing her little hand at the drunken man on the ground. I got down to her level and she smiles letting her new teeth that are growing visible.
"We gotta get home Darc, dont you want to see Papaw?" I ask smiling, she gets gitty and starts jumping and clapping her hands and squeals.
"PAPAWWW!" She screeches making me laugh and pick my two year old daughter up and put her on my hip and start walking to my apartment about a block from here. She puts her thumb in her mouth and sets her head on my shoulder lightly, her caramel wavy hair falling over her cute face making it noticeable that she is sleepy
You are probably all like 'Why the hell is she still in Doncaster?' it may be a small town at least for driving but not on foot, and my baby girl needs to be here. They have the best St. Judes Research Hospital in the UK. Every month she goes to get newer blood pumped into her, sure its hard because I have to work 3 jobs, but I'd rather work three jobs with my baby girl alive then to work 1 and her be gone from me forever. She stirrs a bit once I walk up the stairs to our apartment but she doesnt wake, not even when I open the door.
"Darcy.. Darc?" I shake her and she lifts her head to see my Dad standing there. She squirms till I set her down and she squeals and runs to my Dad.
"PAW PAWWWW PAAAAPPPPAAWW!" She squeals as my Dad spins her around and hugging her.
"How is my beautiful Grand baby?" He asks poking her nose making her giggle.
"Dood! Mummuh took meh twoh get bwood agwain." She says raising her sleep showing him the mark the needle made. She pulled the lolli out of her coat pocket and giggled again.
"Bu I got a lolli!" She squeals. My Dad laughs and bounces her around before taking her to the living room and giving her, her toys and walking back in the kitchen with me.
"Want some tea Paw?" I ask sipping on the hot liquid he shakes his head no and sits down.
"How is she?" He asks with his mouth in his hands I sigh and put my mug down.
"She is okay.. As long as I keep earning enough money to get blood transplants she'll be alright til they find that heart she needs.." I mumble to my Father sitting down and he grabs my hands knowing this has been hard on me. First loosing my Mother before my baby is born then her getting a rare heart disease..
"You should tell her Father.." He says sitting up straight. I scoff and shake my head.
"Dad, Liam cant know! His career is going great, not to mention that his girlfriend would be a bit pissy with me dont you think?" I say chuckling bitterly. I huffs and shakes his head.
"Leah Renee. Your Mother would want you to tell him." He says his deep brown eyes looking at me with a fatherly meaning in them.
"Dont bring Mum into this Dad!" I scream and slap my hands on the table. I hear the sound of little feet and see my baby girl rubbing her eyes crying.
"Mummuh.." She she says wailing. I run over to her and pick her up holding her close to me cooing in her it it will be okay.
"Pwease stop fightn Mummuh." She stutters out putting her head on my shoulder. I sit down on the dining room chair and sing the song I would every time she would be fussy at night.
'But if I kiss you will your mouth read this truth,
Darling how I miss you, strawberries taste how lips do,
And its not complete yet, mustn't get our feet wet,
Cause that leads to regret, diving in too soon,
But I'll owe it all to you, oh, my little bird.
My little bird, whoa oh oh oh whoaa
,My little bird,
My little bird,
You're my little bird...'
I sing quietly now hearing Darcy's soft snores I look at my Dad and he smiles.
"You're a wonderful Mum, and my Beautiful strong daughter." He whispers. I smile and take her to her room and coming back and smiling at my Dad.
"She needs a Father in her life Leah.." My Dad pleads. I sigh and run a hand through my natural honey blonde hair.. Yes I got red of my fire red hair after Darcy was born going back to my regular hair color, I figure its time for me to mature and age up for the sake of my baby.
"I know Dad.. But how do I reach a international popstar who as girls saying that he is the Father of their baby." I huff and put my head in my hands. My Dad lets out a chuckle and I raise my eyebrow
"Yes but you can very much see Liam in that little girl." He says "She has the same neck birthmark, she has the same eyes. The same sweet personality he does. She is practically him in a girl form Leah." My Dad states eyeing me. I sigh and nod.
"Dad, its been two long years.. How do know he'll remember me? I have been so Lifeless, only my baby girl giving me spirits.." I mumble looking at my scuffed up red converse. He takes my hand in his.
"I know, him and that Tomlinson fellow will remember you, fate works wonders, it does. In time they will remember you.. Just remember that. And remember that im only a phone call away okay baby girl?" He says and I nod my head, he gets up and kisses my forehead and leaves, leaving me in my thoughts of what would it have been like if Louis would have stayed.. If he would have made us a thing.. He would have left me once Darcy was born.. Because then he would have seen that she isnt his.
I get up and head to her room and see she is fast asleep her thumb in her mouth and her snores heard. She sleeps just like her Daddy.
The words my Father said to me replay in my head over, and over, and over again.
'She needs her Father in her life'
Was he implying I wasnt good enough? That Im not a good enough Mum for her!
But its true.. Ever little girl need her Daddy.. Like I still do today.. I sit down in my empty living room and put my head in my hands my long honey blonde hair cascading over my face and the muffle of my cries could be heard through out the apartment.
"Mummuh.." I hear a presious little groggy voice say making my head shoot up to Darcy.
"D-Darcy how did you get out of your crib?" I ask she smiles sleeply and I already know that I didnt lock it again and didnt put it high enough. Her little fit pad over to me and crawl on my lap and her little hands reach up and wipe my tears away and she hugs me tightly.
"I wuv you Mummuh." She whispers making me smile and wrap my arms around her.
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Lifeless (l.tomlinson.)
Fanfiction**Sequel to The Bad Boy** (Book 2.) 2 years since she has said good-bye, 2 years since she let him go, 2 years since she last seen the love of her life Louis Tomlinson. 2 years she has basically been Lifeless, but her baby girl keeps her going maki...
