Lifeless (l.tomlinson.)

Chapter Five.

Leah Renee Miller.

I smile and look out to the setting sky and close my eyes. Taking in the smell of the salty ocean water. The chirps of birds as they go to sleep and crickets come out to play. The sound of the waves rising and falling. Like a song, a sweet melody of silence and everything. But soon I got ripped from it with a warm sensation on my left hand. My eyes shoot open and look toward the odd feeling on my hand.

Louis.

He is sending me is superstar smile grinning like an idiot for no reason. I let out a light laugh and raise my eyebrow at the boy who I used to sneak out just to be with every waking moment.

"What are you doing Tomlinson?" I say a smile spreading across my face.

"Getting your attention." He says letting a chuckle out. He looks me in the eyes and kisses my cheek. Making me go red.

"Louis!!!" I hear a squeal and a thump. Once I turn back to Louis he's on his back the beautiful brunette on top of him. The warm feeling on my hand was gone.. So was the tingly feeling in my stomach. I watch as she whispers in his ear and he chuckles and kisses all around her face making her giggle more. And then the feeling again. The feeling of want.. The feeling I've wanted for the past two years. Just to have one man touch me, hold me, kiss me, tell me he loves me, to have the 'i love you more' fights, to fall asleep to his heart beat, get into fights for stupid shit and make up for it in five minutes, have him tell me im beautiful.. Him to sing to me, sing our children to sleep, spoil me.. Louis.. Only Louis.

I soon felt a warm tear fall down my face. Crying. Thats one thing I've done since he left too.

I wipe it away and stand up leaving the couple in their moment. I walked over to Liam who has Darcy in his arms snoring lightly, her caramel brown hair over her face. I lightly move it to see my beautiful daughters face taking in how much she really does look like Liam. I look up and see he is smiling down at us both.

"What." I whisper looking into his brown eyes.

"Im just taking in how much you have, matured and what a great Mum you are.. Darcy has your attitude." He whispers breathlessly. I smile at his comment and kiss her forehead. I sit next to him and let out a well deserved sigh.

"She looks so much like her Daddy, acts a lot like him too. Made me miss him a little more each day." I say quietly messing with the sand under my bum. "Made me wish he would have stayed and helped. I was so alone for so long. I only had Dad.." I say looking at him.

"S-she acts like me? How?" He asks. I let out a light laugh and put my head on my knees.

"She is the sweetest thing ever. She is caring. She is their for a complete stranger. So curious about the world." I say naming off just a few things she has a like, like him. "Her favorite cereal is Lucky Charms, she loves forks and hates spoons." I add.

"Its insane how little and precious something can be but act like someone they havent met yet." He says with a hint of pride in his voice.

"How long have Louis and Eleanor been together.." I ask changing the subject trying to figure out how long I've truly lost my Doncaster boy. He ponders a bit. Moving Darcy to a more comfertable position.

"Hm, probably a year?" He says almost questioning himself, then he nods again making it clear that he had it right.

"Oh." Was all I could get out of my mouth really. I was to into not crying not to care for a true answer.

"Leah. You love him dont you.." He asks quietly because there were ears everywhere.

"More then the air I breathe.." I whisper back meeting his pained gaze.