Love If We Made It

Settle down

"okay so technically yea but also technically no"

"i'm gonna go chu, this is just, it's too much"

"no please stay, i just, i want to say something"

"say what? you've said enough no? god stop playing with me, please, it hurts"

"i'm sorry"

"i'm scared chu, im scared of what else you have to say and i'm scared of the fact that after everything i still fucking listen to you"

She's borderline sobbing now, raw emotion streams down their faces and they know, it's real.

"let me finish"

"just, just say it"

"something i said earlier, it's wrong"

"what" her voice is strained, it screams exhaustion and pain and longing and love, all of it.

"when i said i loved you"

Chaeyoung turns around, she needs to leave.now.

But she only makes it about 4 feet when the older girl says,

"i still do, it's not past tense."

and there's hope

Chaeyoung turns around

"what"

"i love you Chaeyoung, i always have"

"stop playing with me, it's not fair"

Jisoo steps forward, pressing her forehead against Chaeyoungs, She brings the her hand to the other girls and places it on her chest.

"it's real, trust me" She whispers, for the two of them to hear

"i can't do this again, i can't, im not going to be your dirty secret anymore Jisoo, i won't."

"i don't want you to be"

"what"

"Chae?"

"yes"

"do you still love me"

"i can't answer that, you know that"

"please i just, i need to know. I feel your love, i always have, i just need to know if it's real"

"you know i love you." Cheyoung sadly smiles

Jisoo does the same

"can i hug you"

"please" Chaeyoung chokes out

And so they hug, tears streaming down their faces, they don't talk about it on wednesday, or thursday afternoon.

but thursday night is here.