A fresh start (Eddie x fem y/n reader)

He's gone

"Goodnight Eddie."

"Goodnight y/n."

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After what felt like ages, you eventually fell asleep next to Eddie. But you didn't fall into a deep sleep, simply because it was weird sleeping next to someone. You hadn't done that in ages, and definitely not with someone you barely knew. And even though you were asleep, you could tell that Eddie wasn't. He was moving around a lot, trying to get comfortable or something like that. There was definitely a chance that he was the reason you couldn't sleep, well not him... all of his movements.

So trying to make him stay still, you rolled over to your side and simply placed your hand on his bare chest. That's all you did, and he stayed still, the only movement you could feel was his heartbeat and chest going up and down slowly. He was definitely relaxed, so he wasn't uncomfortable laying next to you.. thankfully.

After this you went into a deeper sleep, still hearing the light snoring coming from the boy next to you. You started dreaming, but it wasn't such a nice dream. You remembered the fact that the Byers family was coming very soon, and you had do either tell everyone in the group your whole story, or stay away. The easiest thing was definitely staying away while they visited, hoping that no one would mention your name. Because tell everyone about your story would be the last thing you wanted. You moved here for this.. you moved away because you wanted to forget your own story. But of course it couldn't be that easy.. it always had to be difficult.

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The morning after you woke up extremely slowly. First.. panic hit you. Making you sit up fast, breathing heavily, but as soon as you opened your eyes fully and rubbed them a little.. you remembered.. "No school today.." you whispered to yourself. This almost made you laugh, you had never really stressed about school, but you wanted to pass so badly. Luckily you had a day off, and Eddie probably did too.

Eddie..

You looked to your side, he wasn't there... and you looked around the room, seeing that all of his stuff and clothes was gone. There wasn't a sign of him, not one thing. "Oh.." you sighed as you sat up. You threw your legs out of the bed and got up a little too quickly, making you slightly dizzy. So you sat back down before trying to get up again. That always happened.

Taking on some sweatpants and a singlet you decided to head into the kitchen, making some food for you. At this point you knew that Eddie had left you. He probably had somewhere to be, but you honestly didn't care, he had his own life and stuff.. well.. okay you cared.. but only a bit tho.

Walking into the kitchen you didn't see anybody. You had a small hope that the brown haired boy would be there, but he wasn't. "Yeah.. he has left." You sighed as you started making a very easy breakfast. Just a slice of bread with some jelly, because you knew you had to eat, yet you didn't have appetite at all.

Even though you told yourself Eddie was just a guy who probably had plans.. you couldn't help but to think that he had left you because he didn't like you. That he was uncomfortable or just not into at all. Not necessarily as.. that.. but he didn't like you as a friend either. Another sign left your mouth. "This always happens."

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After a few hours you had taken a shower, eaten some snacks, watched a movie and gotten dressed.. you were almost wanting to get back to bed. You had a rough day, everything felt awful. Not even showering and trying to take care of yourself helped. Because stuff like that used to help, specially when you stayed with your grandparents.

When they were gone and you didn't feel too good, you always just watched a movie and took a shower.. and that helped. It made you think of other stuff and not overthink absolutely everything. But since you were alone it didn't help at all. Because there was something about the fact that you had someone close to you, and that was something that warmed you, helped you. Now.. there was no one that would come home with groceries, with a flower or two, coming by to check on you.. or anything like that. You were all alone, which was definitely good at times. But in times like this.. it wasn't great.

*Door bell rings*

Jumping out of your thoughts, you look over at the door. It had to be the mailman or something like that, because who else could it be? You stood up and walked to the door, looking down while holding the door handle, getting ready to be socially active for a few seconds. You opened the door and..

"Eddie?"

The brown haired boy looked at you with a shy smile, leaning against the wall. "Hi y/n" he then just walked inside and took his shoes off without saying one single word.

"Uhm... hi"

He walked over to the couch and sat down, stretching a little bit before he looked up at you. You stood there, closing the door and looking at him with the moves confused look in the world. "Where have you been?"

Eddie looked away before he looked back up and you. "Doesn't really matter. Sorry about leaving you, but I'm back now at least! Wanna watch a movie or something?" He said, and his mood definitely changed quickly. You didn't know if it actually changed, or if it was just him faking that everything was alright.
You sat down next to him, but on the other side of the couch. "Y-yeah sure." Eddie was fiddling with the chain on his pants, and you definitely noticed because it was making so much noise. You wanted to ask if he was alright.. but he wasn't. And he definitely didn't want to talk about it.

But you were curious.. and you couldn't help it.

——— Authors note———

Hi everyone!<3 I'm so sorry about not posting for ages. I'm gonna be completely honest with you guys. I haven't been motivated at all, my mental health is terrible and I've been all over the place. I also had a trip to Scotland which was great though, definitely helped me out a bit. I will try to post more for you guys, but pushing myself is something that will make everything worse, so I'm trying to do everything in my own tempo. I'm truly sorry about time and quality around the chapters.

I'm trying to be better and make better chapters for you.<3