* MENTIONS OF SELF HARM*
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Lana didn't come back. She just didn't return. People looked for her, I looked for her. Not that it seemed anyone cared that much to look good enough for her, anyways. I didn't understand why she hadn't came back. I thought about it for days.
I wondered if she'd died, or something. It was possible. It scared me, too. It scared me even more wondering why she didn't return. If I was the reason why. I stayed in bed for at least two days.
I remembered being bullied in middle school and the beginning of high school. It was really just being taunted and stuff. But it hurt. It hurt deeply. It hurt almost like this did. But this was far worse.
It hurt that she ran after seeming to figure out my crush on her. Maybe, she was homophobic or something. But that didn't seem to be the reason. She seemed almost...scared. I got depressed after a while.
Rethinking the same thing over and over again. And after a while, I became lonely. It was unlikely I would get a new roommate soon. Soon, I was contemplating suicide.
Marina Lambrini Diamandis, get a grip! No wonder you got bullied...
The thoughts continued, growing worse. It was scary, actually. Eventually, I got sent home. To my dad. This was worse than boarding school itself. He was gone most of the time, anyways. He was a drunk.
One day, I was laying in bed, like I did most days, and noticed the shine of the metallic blade from the bathroom. The blade that could easily take my life. I managed my way out of the bed and into the bathroom. I slowly approached the blade. I picked it up and stared at it.
Do it...
No!
Marina...do it!
The voices became too much and I angrily swiped the blade across my wrist. Blood came rushing out instantly. I stumbled to the bathroom floor. I heard a muffled knock on the door, but of course couldn't do anything about it. I passed out slowly, almost in slow motion.
I felt someone picking me up before completely passing out. I think I heard screaming, but I couldn't tell. All I knew is that it felt...good. Like, it relieved me of all the stress I'd felt. And I didn't know if it was wrong to feel that way or not.
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