tns oneshots

things work out

-kingston-

Regionals is amazing. Like it's so incredible. I don't even know how to fully describe it. Like within a year I've gone from posting dance videos from my basement to dancing on a huge stage in front of hundreds of people. Doing the contemporary piece felt amazing, even if Piper did screw up her aerial. Dancing with my friends was so incredible. And I don't know how our rope dance didn't win but now we've got a second chance. Our new dance is incredible and now we've got roughly three hours until performance time. And I've decided that today's the day. I'm going to tell Ozzy I have feelings for him.

I was going to tell him yesterday, before our rope dance, but I chickened out. But I am going to tell him today. Even if it means our friendship could potentially go up in flames. Because honestly, I've liked him since the moment we met on tns west and right now I'm so in love with him and I know if I don't tell him, I'll always regret it. That being said, I'm still very very scared. No one knows. I mean, Noah's the worst secret keeper ever and Henry would never shut up about it and I'm not 100% sure Finn isn't homophobic. So I couldn't tell them. And I'm just not close enough with the girls to tell them my biggest secret. And I haven't told Ozzy yet because I thought he was in love with Richelle. I don't think he's still in love with her but I think he still likes her. He says he doesn't, he says he's over here but I don't believe him. But I'm still going to tell him how I feel because at the very least, if he rejects me, I can finally try to move on.

Right now, I'm walking around trying to find him, and just praying that when I find him, he'll be alone. Apparently luck is on my side, because I find him sitting outside on the grass, alone. "Can I sit?" I ask, not really waiting for an answer as I throw myself down onto the grass beside him. He smirks at me and my heart sort of skips a beat but I ignore it and try my best to stay calm. "What are you doing by yourself out here?" I ask. He's silent for a few seconds before answering. "I just... wanted to be alone." He finally says. It seems like he has more he wants to say but he doesn't say it. So I take a deep breath and open my mouth to confess how I feel to Ozzy but he speaks before I get the chance. "Can I tell you something funny." He laughs, but it sounds slightly forced. "Sure" I say, shrugging. "I used to like you. Isn't that... weird?" He says. I don't reply, I'm still processing it. I can't stop focusing on those two words. Used to. used to. uSeD tO. "Kingston. You good?" Ozzy's voice pulls me back to reality. "Yeah. I mean, that is weird." I force a laugh that sounds more fake than Ozzy's. Ozzy joins in and I think this is the most awkward we've been around each other since we met. "Sorry for making things really awkward now." Ozzy says. He looks slightly guilty and I just feel bad. So I make a stupid decision to try and ease the tension. "It's fine, honestly. I mean, I used to like you too."

-ozzy-

It's been months and I still relive that conversation with Kingston from regionals. The fuck did I say that for. I didn't mean it. What I meant to say is that I'm madly in love with him and sorry it took me a ridiculously stupid amount of time to see that. Not "I used to like you." And now things are awkward. So awkward. Because apparently we both used to like each other and if I had just acted earlier we might have had a chance but instead I was too busy being in denial and pretending to like Richelle to even consider the fact I might have been in love with my best friend. Who can now be known as my one who got away, I guess. Since our friendship is forced and awkward and we have no chance at a relationship.

We're together right now actually. Well, not just the two of us. There's six of us. Summer, Henry, Lily, Kenzie, me and Kingston. We're learning a small group routine for nationals. Summer's going over the choreography with Henry, who does not seem to be getting it, Kenzie's whining to me about some book report she has due tomorrow that she hasn't started yet, Kingston and Lily might be flirting and Nick has just walked in soaking wet with a broken umbrella and a bad mood. This continues for several minutes until eventually Summer calls a break. The others all leave the studio, except for Kingston and I decide to talk to him and maybe things won't be awkward. Then I open my mouth.

"So, you and Lily, huh?" I cringe internally. Why the fuck did I say that? "No lol." Kingston says. "Did you just say lol?" I laugh. "No" he protests, but he's laughing with me and this is the most comfortable we've been together since regionals and I'm thinking maybe there's a chance our friendship can be saved. But then the lights go out and for some strange unfathomable reason I jump into his arms. I'm not scared of the dark. I don't usually leap into his arms. But apparently, today I do. I'm kind of super aware that this is the closest we've ever been and I can feel his breath on my face and his heart bearing sort of fast in his chest, or maybe that's just my imagination. I know it's not my heart because that's beating as loud as a drum and as fast as I think flies would flap their wings. I can feel my cheeks go red but Kingston's are red to match and I'm thinking if there's ever a good time to tell him how I feel, it's now. "I'm completely and madly in love with you" I whisper in one breath. I'm now shitting myself with nerves because oh god what if he doesn't feel the same way. Then we opens his mouth but all that comes out is "Good." I don't know what that means, does he like me back or not or what and I'm starting to get a bit panicked but before I can completely spiral he kisses me. And it's amazing and wonderful and I feel like I'm flying and I just know that's everything's going to work out ok.