New to this - The Black Phone, Brance.

'Regret.'

Sorry if this is bad or short, I've only consumed nic nd water in the past 12 hours lmao. im also watching cobra kai nd im tryna multi task.

—Vance pov—
I drop off Bruce and say goodbye like normal. I'm not even gonna lie, I'm on the verge of tears. I gotta find something.
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Lucas
L: you coming back to Danny's?

V: idrk man

I heard the convo with Bruce
we got weed nd shit if you need it

thanks but I don't think it'd be a good idea

alr, don't get beat up over it
someone else'll come around
we're also having a party at Mia's next week.

I'll be there

ok, don't get too drunk

I won't
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I should've taken his offer on the weed, it probably would've made me think of him more anyway. Something about him is different, I've never wanted to chase someone. I've always been chased. What makes him so different? Why do I want him but he doesn't want me? It's never been this way. I shouldn't have taken his first kiss, he deserved someone better. Not some sort of man-slut like Stanley said. I'd kiss anyone everyone at parties, granted I was never completely sober but that's not the point. Why would Bruce want me anyway? I have terrible anger issues, I smoke and drink. I'm.. as I said before. God damn I hate these new feelings.
I regret everything.
fighting
smoking
drinking
not being a virgin
kissing bruce
being...
gay.
Bruce, what the fuck did you do to mean?
What am I even thinking? I can't Bruce, this is all my fault. Bruce is perfect, I'm not. I'll just have to deal with this by myself, like always.
I didn't realize by I drove around for hours, it 5 now. I should get home for dinner.

—Bruce pov—
I brush my teeth and lay down in bed and check my phone, I only have one notification from Finney. I reluctantly respond to him.
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Mint Arm😎
F: Heard you went a party with Vance.
How'd it go?

B: It was good.

Aren't you scared of him?

No.

Why? How?

I mean..
What's there to be scared of?

EVERYTHING????

Not really.
He just has bad anger issues, he's not all that bad.

You sure?????

Yea, he's really sweet.

Sweet?

Um
Yea?

You define him as sweet?
He beats the shit out of any kids who breaths around him wrong!

Ik, but there's more to it.
I think.

I'm going to trust your judgment
If he ever puts his hands on you I'll send Robin on his ass.

Lol
Thank you.

Anytime
Now gts

You too.

Goodnight

Night.
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Vance wouldn't hurt me. I don't think. I should probably text him to tell him he doesn't need to pick me up. That was our norm, he'd pick me up everyday to drive me to school.

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Pinball Boy

B: You don't need to pick me tomorrow.

V: I can't anyway lmao
My mom took my keys cuz I didn't tell I wasn't gonna be home yesterday.

You really didn't tell your mom?

Yea, it kinda just slipped me mind.
But you should go ahead and sleep

Maybe.

Definitely.
Goodnight Baseball

Goodnight Pinball.
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I guess he doesn't care about the rejection. I feel like I should feel glad, relieved. But I'm not, I feel, hurt? Upset? I've never felt these feelings.

...

Do I regret rejecting Vance?