I'm A Motherfckng Woman [TRANSWOMAN X MAN]

11

Kiara Valentina Paladin

"Yas, girl! Twerk it!" I can't clearly remember how or when did we arrive inside this flashy and noisy place, all I can think right now is having more liquor and dancing my heart out. It's been a long time since I've been this liberated. Nakaka-miss lang. 

Napalingon ako sa likuran ko nang may biglang yumakap sa aking bewang. The strong smell of cigarettes and leather assaulted my nose. I instantly recognized the owner of that smell. Lance

"Drink, babe," ang bulong niya sa tenga ko. He reached for my hand and handed me the glass with liquor on it.

I swayed my hips and giggled. Kanina pa niya ako binibigyan ng alak, hindi ko na nga mabilang kung ilang baso na ang nainom ko. They kept on giving Den drinks pero hindi umiinom ang gaga kaya ako ang sumasalo sa iba.

"Come on, inom na, para makauwi na tayo," he commanded again but I shook my head ang laughed. Go home with him? That can't be! I still have to get my baby Stela.

I pushed the glass back to him and pulled myself away. I'm dizzy. I need to pee. Every step I take was a real struggle. My legs are wobbly already.

It didn't take long for me to reach the women's comfort room. I walked past the two girls making out wildly on the sink with both of their hands on each other's boobs. Gosh! Get a room will you? Respeto sa mga single di ba?

Before I closed the door, nilingon ko muna iyong girls na nadaanan ko kanina. "Hey!"

My brows met each other and I marched back to them. I tapped the girl in an orange fur top on her shoulders to get her attention.

"What?!" Ang bulyaw niya sa akin. I felt like crying when she did. Why is she mean to me?

"I..." I gulped and looked at the other girl sitting on the sink. "just want to tell you, guys, to wear a condom. I know I sound mean because babies are a blessing BUT they don't deserve to be made inside the comfort room."

The orange girl gave me a funny look. Iyong naka-white naman ay napatawa. "Gosh, girl, Are you okay?"

I shake my head. "Naiihi na ako."

"Then go!"

"But I'm scared. Can you just stop being mean to me?"

I saw the orange girl take a deep breath. She reached for the white girl's hand and the latter squeezed it naman. I want something like that too!

"Girly, you're drunk. Go on, umihi ka na, please."

Tumango ako. I feel calmer now. She's not mean to me anymore. She's so nice. Wow.

I head to the cubicle and locked the door shut. I heaved a sigh of relief after I emptied my bladder. I tried to stand up but I instantly seek for support from the wall when my head spun and acid began to travel back to my mouth.

"Blergh!" Hindi ko na yata nai-shoot ng maayos ang isinuka ko dahil hindi ko na kaya pang pigilan.

I weakly kneeled on the cold tiled floor and continued to barf all my food inside the bowl. Napasandal ako sa pintuan at pagod na napapikit ng mata. I wanna go home. I have to call mom. No! She'll see me on my skirt and she'd freak out.

I sobbed.

I don't want them to freak out. I understand na they'll get shocked and mad at me but I love them. I want them to accept me. I want to take my mommy out and go shopping with her to buy new dresses and jewelry.

Is that too much to ask?

My train of thoughts got interrupted when Ariana Grande's into you blasted inside this small four-cornered cubicle. I smirked and reached out for my phone in my dress's pocket.