I'm A Motherfckng Woman [TRANSWOMAN X MAN]

13

Kiara Valentina Paladin

I can't stop myself from secretly gushing over the expensive displays inside the luxury store tita went into. I love expensive things.

Alala ko pa nga kung paano ako gumastos ng pera dati makabili lang ng mga gusto kong shoes at bags ta's pinapatago ko sa bahay ng mga friends ko.

One time mga nahuli ako nila mom at lolo na namimili ng mga shoes. Buti na lang kasama ko mga friends ko before kaya nag-alibi ako na sinamahan ko lang sila. When in fact I was the one who asked them to come with me.

"Welcome back, miss. Ngayon lang po ulit kita nakita dito."

Napatigil sa eri ang ang kamay ko nang marinig ang isang malamyos na boses sa likuran ko. Nilingon ko ito at nakita ang isang matangkad na babae. She's about 5'8 siguro. Her hair was neatly tied in a bun and she's wearing the store's uniform designed for their senior client adviser.

I smiled and chuckled. "It's been a while, Alaine. How are you?"

Lumapit ako sa kaniya at yumakap. She's my favorite staff and one of the reason why palagi akong lumalagpas sa allowance ko before. She knows what I wanted and she knows how to make budol sa mga clients.

"Okay lang naman po. Hindi na kita nakikita dito. Dati halos buwan-buwan kayong dumadalaw dito."

I laughed. Ganoon na ba ako kalala before? I never knew. Ang alam ko lang kung may gusto ako at naabot ng allowance ko kinukuha ko. I also frequent jewelry stores before.

My previous yaya thought me na jewelries are good investments. And indeed it is! Isinasangla ko iyong iba kapag nagigipit sa pera ang ganda ko.

I sighed at inilibot ang paningin sa buong paligid. "Well, things happened and I can no longer afford things around here. Did you miss me?" I teased.

Tumango siya. "Syempre naman po. Isa po kayo sa high valued customer namin dito."

"Mommy!" Our conversation was interrupted nang sumulpot si Stela Marie sa harapan namin.

I couldn't kept myself from squeling when I saw her wearing a white Dior long skirt and sweater on top of a short sleeved shirt. Tapos iyong loafer rin na white ay saktong-sakto sa outfit. Nakalugay na rin ngayon ang buhok niya at pinatungan ng pink headband.

"You look so beautiful, mare," I said in awe.

This is what I'm striving for right now. It's no longer for myself anymore, it's for Stela Marie. Iyong walang financial insecurity, where you don't have to worry about your safety, where you get to choose what you want to be and where you want to be. I want to spoil her and see her smile.

Umikot siya ng isang beses sa harapan ko at nakangise akong tiningala. "Maganda po ba, mommy? Wala pong price to eh kaya di ko matansya kung magkano."

Napahalakhak ako. What should I do with this kid and her smart mouth?

"What are you saying, young lady? I told you to stop worrying the price at ako ang bahala sa inyo ng mommy mo. What do you think, ija? It looks pretty right? Ako ang nagmatchy-matchy sa outfit niya."