Zoe and Giovanni

Chapter 25.

Zoe's Pov.

Three weeks later.
Perez explained to me what happened and I wasn't surprised, after all that's what mafias do.
But there is something going on with him.
He is not the usual Perez, he is different especially when it comes to what is happening between us.
We have been having sex and I don't know what to call whatever is between us.

I needed to get things straight here. Perez for the past few days, has been giving me mixed signals and I don't know what to do, it's killing me inside knowing that he wants me but still he doesn't want to admit it to himself. I walked towards his office. I was debating on whether to confront him or not but I can't go back now. I knocked softly on the door and I had a "come in" from inside the office.
"what do you want Zoe?" He asked and kept working on his laptop. That's rude but anyways....
"Do you have any feelings for me?" I asked going straight to the point, no beating around the bush. A person's heart( mine) is at stake here.He looked up so first, confusion written all over his face. He hesitated and then said " no I don't have". That hurt.
I could see his face filled with no emotions at all. "Do you intend to fall in love with me?" I asked my voice almost cracking.
"No, Zoe, please stop!" He almost yelled. He rose from his seat and walked towards me.
Oh no mister Perez, I am the one who is supposed to be yelling.
"Then why did you give me hope? uh? everytime, every second that I have been with you, YOU gave me hope!" I yelled while poking at his chest.
"I didn't give you any hope Zoe Okay.And I am sorry you got the wrong idea, it's.... it's just that you don't fit my-"
"your standards, right?" I cut him short.
"I wasn't gonna say that Zoe and you know that."
"No? uh I see... listen Perez, there is a difference between fucking someone and making love to them. YOU have not been fucking me for that last few weeks Perez, you .... you have been making love to me. you have been looking at me with hope in your eyes, what the heck is wrong with you?" I said almost crying but I couldn't let my tears fall. I am just saving them because the moment I walk out of this room, I'll be socked in tears.
"I am sorry okay, I just don't want you in my life Zoe, it's fucked up" That's all he said and walked out of the room

Wow that's... that's not nice.Walk away Perez, that's all you do, WALKING AWAY!
"Shit! I am a mess"
I said to myself, instead of walking to my room I started looking for money or maybe credit cards.
I'll save my tears for later but now I need to get out of here, to be far away from him.
He can't keep on hurting me like this.