I Hate You More

Very Fucking Funny

Remington

(I've pretty much skipped through the whole tour bc I didn't really want to right a bunch more tour content)

"How are we fucking doing tonight Los Angeles? Are you still with us?" Sebastian yelled into the mic.

"Hell yeah," Harlen chuckled at the audience's reaction, "we're so grateful to be on this tour with Yungblood, and seriously the crowds have been insane. It feels good to be playing where we live tonight, and end this tour with a fucking bang!"

Harlen started playing the riff to 'Fucking with my head' but, I spoke into the mic in front of me, "Wait, wait, wait. I need to say something."

She ended in the middle of a riff, and gave me a look of pure confusion.

"So uh," I looked at the rest of the band, knowing that everyone but Harlen knew what I was about to do, "normally we end our set with the same song. It's called 'Fucking With My Head', you should really check it out if you don't know it, but, tonight I want to do something a little different."

I walked over to Harlen, and wrapped my arm around her, pulling her into my side, "This is our guitar player Harlen. Everybody say 'hi Harlen'!"

The audience did exactly what I asked to them, prompting Harlen to wave shyly back to them.

"So Harlen is an important part of this band but, she's also an important part of our family," I smiled thoughtfully as I spoke, "actually she's so important to me, and I fucked up really bad, and I want to try really hard to fix it. So, this song is called 'Stay' and it's dedicated to you tonight."

I looked in her eyes while the last sentence left my lips, and her confusion only got more prominent as Sebastian played the opening chord to the song. She shook her head, almost to bring herself back into reality before playing the second guitar part to the song. I focused on her the entire time.

I see you, for what you are
It's something in your eyes
That look past my scars
So where do you go, when you leave in the night?
'Cause I see those teary eyes

I got closer to her as I sang the pre chorus.

I am the only hope for you
You are the only hope for me too
I just wanted you
I just wanted you
I am the only hope for you
You are the only hope for me too
I just wanted you
I just wanted you

When I sang the chorus I vaguely remembered her helping me to my bunk when I was off my ass almost a month ago. When I begged her to stay that time she did. Maybe history would repeat itself just once.

So, stay
This time
Don't go away
Don't go away
Don't go away
So, stay
This time
This time

Harlen pressed her forehead to mine, pulling incoherent yells from the audience, and I went into the second verse while I watched her eyes grow teary.

You see me, for what I am
One thing you can say
That'll leave me broken
If the end is near, I really don't want to know
'Cause it's haunting me to watch you go

She mouthed the second chorus along with me, with a small smile on her face.

I am the only hope for you
You are the only hope for me too
I just wanted you
I just wanted you
So, stay
This time
Don't go away
Don't go away
Don't go away
So, stay
This time
This time

The emotion I was putting into the last bit, brought me to my knees in front of this woman, who I had loved for so long. I never wanted to lose her again, even though I had never really had her in the first place. I wanted her to feel my longing for her so, I gave it everything I had.

I am the only hope for you
You are the only hope for me too
I just wanted you
I just wanted you
I am the only hope for you
You are the only hope for me too
I just want
I just wanted you

So stay,
This time
Don't go away
Don't go away
Don't go away
So, stay
This time
This time

I laid on the ground as I finished the line, out of breathe but, praying to god that I meant even half to her of what she meant to me. After a couple of seconds I yelled into the microphone.

"Thank you guys! Once again, we're Palaye Royale! Thanks for being fucking awesome tonight!"

I had barely finished the song before Harlen was bolting off the stage, me following closely behind her.

"Look- I know that might've not been the right way to-"

Before I could finish defending myself, Harlen flung herself into my arms, and kissed me passionately.

"I love you," She whispered as she pulled back, "and I don't think I'll ever be able to stop loving you. I've tried so many times but, I can't."

"I love you too," I mumbled, "you mean the absolute fucking world to me, and I can't stand not having you close to me. I can't stand watching you frown, even if you look beautiful when you're doing it-"

Harlen cut me off with a loud laugh.

"Anyways," I sighed contently, "I want you with me forever, and even if you're not there I know that a piece of me is always going to belong to you."

"Remington," She smiled tearfully, "I need you to spit it out, so I can say yes."

"Harlen," I chuckled, grinning like an idiot, "will you pretty pretty please- finally- be my girlfriend?"

"Hmmm," She pretended to think for a moment, "I don't think so."

My jaw dropped at her answer, prompting her to laugh uncontrollably, "Come on. You know I'm only kidding."

I rolled my eyes playfully, and pulled her in for another kiss.

"Very fucking funny."