just for us | one-shots

After parties part 10

"I swear to you, if you're forgetting something..." Amana said in an annoyed tone

"Don't be ridiculous, of course I'm forgetting something. I just don't know what yet. I'll know once I need it" I said in a non chalant way and Amana took a deep breath pressing her temple.

"I swear to-" I interrupted her not wanting to hear her anymore

"Let's go, you're the one who said to go early not to get traffic." I almost ran past her towards the door while carrying all my stuff. She just took her things and put all our stuff in the back of the rental we got and finally hit the road.

"You know I don't ask, but how was your date yesterday?"

"I was about to tell you that it was like nothing happened, but that's a lie. You could feel the wheight of all our decisions in the past over us, but something changed, we actually talked about the insecurities in our relationship, I..."

"Your relationship! So you two are back together?"

"We're not dating, but it doesn't mean we don't have a relationship."

"I have to ask, I know how posessive she is, how did she react to you going to Ocean City to party and be in a big house..." We both laughed

"Not good" We laughed even louder "But, as I was saying, we talked about it, and everything is fine now" She looked at me with suspicion

"Nina was fine with you being with other people? And you're telling me you two are being honest with eachother?"

"Nina was not fine with me being with other people, but I wasn't fine with me being with other people as well. Look, Am, I really want to be all in this time, I really want to really try. I love her... All that anger I've been feeling for years it was at me. I was angry at me for the fact that I still love her and that I couldn't do anything about it. That it didn't matter how many different things I did, I still just wanted her close and just wanted to..." I started to cry and Amana looked at me and at the road ahead worried. "I just wanted to be able to tell her that. After screaming at her util my throat hurt, of course, but still... After all this time even saying all this makes me angry."

"I'm sorry"

"Why are you sorry?"

"For everything that you went through. And I know I'm not intuitively the first supporter of you getting back together with Nina, I'm just scared of how you are seeing this, because I care about how you'll be when she disapoints you for the first time again. I just need to know you are good on your own feet for when that happens, I know how your addiction has a soft spot for her"

"I don't think I ever told you this, but I am so sorry you had to see me like that and I'm sorry I put you through hell worriyg about if I was going to be okay or in need of medical attention. I'm sorry I ttried to push you out and I'm sorry-"

"You don't have to feel sorry for that. We both did our best and what matters is we're here. You're here. And I'll be here for you, even if you're wasting this amazing trip by making a compromise the day before it. I mean, Haven't you learned anything with me delaying asking someone to date me so I could go on a trip single?" We laughed it off.

*****

"Hey, I just got here! How are you?" I said into the phone leaving my backpack on a chair at the room I'll be staying.

"Hi! I'm having lunch in a minute, how was the trip?" Nina said

"It was really smooth, it's beatiful here. Not only the city, but also Nicky's house"

"Yeah? Can I see the room you're in?"

"Sure" I changed into video

"It looks so comfortable and clean"