Protective

Chapter 32

(heads up. this is one of my favorite episodes so the next few chapters are going to be based on it)

Third person POV

I stare at the headlights
'Til I get my head right
And the dogs stop their howls on the porch
My head is an ocean
And I'm getting homesick
For a place I've never known
And I just keep laughing when I'm stuck in traffic
At the metaphor I've become

Maybe I'm restless, a manic depressive
Or maybe I need someone
Or maybe not

So please just give me something for the pain
'Cause my heart softens to your name
And when you're gone I come undone
And when you're gone how come I'm weak
And I walk wires and I pull teeth
And I'm so tired of chasing dreams
I need someone to wake me up
I need someone to wake me up

I remember the evening
You showed me Cat Stevens
Now I fill the room up with "Father and Son"
Two minutes emotion, four hours I'm frozen
By the fear and the boredom
Now I've run out of reasons to pick up the pieces
I just tried to recall what once was

Maybe I'm desperate, or manic depressive
Or maybe I need someone
Or maybe not

So please just give me something for the pain
'Cause my heart softens to your name
And when you're gone I come undone
And when you're gone how come I'm weak
And I walk wires and I pull teeth
And I'm so tired of chasing dreams
I need someone to wake me up
I need someone to wake me up

And I want you
Oh my god, I want you
To see me in this state
And I want you
Fill your sleep and haunt you
To see the mess you've made
You've made
And I want you
And all my dreams are no use
When I am wide awake
And I want to
Believe I haven't lost you
It's driving me insane
Insane

So please just give me something for the pain
'Cause my heart softens to your name
And when you're gone I come undone
And when you're gone how come I'm weak
And I walk wires and I pull teeth
And I'm so tired of chasing dreams
I need someone to wake me up
I need someone to wake me up

"What a way to open this weeks lesson!" Mr. Schue puts a hand on Isabella's shoulder as she sings out the last note. "Your writing abilities amaze me always, Is! Thank you for sharing your ideas with us for songs to send to the label, they've all been amazing so far" He smiles at her as she thanks him and sits down next to Tina.

"The alumni will be here later today, so everyone start thinking about what you're going to perform and I'll see all of you in a little while!" everyone whispers amongst each other as the bell rings and they all start to leave.

Isabella's POV

I walk down the hallway to put my journal in my locker when I'm suddenly stopped in my tracks and pulled into a dark, vacant classroom.

"Okay, now who the fuck-" the lights turn on as I look at the person that pulled me into the room. I sigh as I try to walk out of the room. "I don't think so little lopez. You haven't answered any of my calls or texts, this was the only way to get you to talk to me. Why are you avoiding me?" They lean against the door and cross their arms.

"I couldn't bring myself to do it, Puck. Every time I tried to pick up the phone to call or text you, it would just remind me that he's gone. It hasn't been easy" he sighs as he brings me into his arms.

"I know it's been hard, the three of us were really close. But that's why we need to talk to each other, so we keep his memory alive" I tear up. "It's hard even just talking to Rachel. I didn't mean to ignore you, i just-" I look down. "I don't want him to be gone. I want the three of us to still play pranks on each other and have movie nights. I haven't really spoken to any of the alumni besides San and Rach. It's just hard for me" he nods as we stand in each other's embrace. "We get through it together from now on, okay?" I nod as we walk out of the room together and slowly head towards the choir room.

As we walk in the choir room I'm immediately brought into someone's arms that I haven't been familiar with in quite some time. I inhale the scent of vanilla and lavender and my entire body automatically relaxes. "I'm so sorry. I'm sorry for everything that happened between us. I'm sorry for not being here when you needed me and I'm sorry for not being here when he died. I love you so much. And he did too" I hear Quinn whisper to me as we bask in the feeling of being in each other's arms for the first time since she graduated.

We release each other and have a silent conversation to talk later after we see everyone else. I sit down in the back row and lean my head back against the wall, closing my eyes.

After a few minutes of listening to everyone's conversations, I'm pulled out of my daydream by someone shouting my name from across the room. Someone that I've missed dearly, but haven't been able to see in quite sometime.

My eyes automatically fill with tears as the room goes quiet and everyone watches as my best friend runs into the room with my sister behind her. I jump out of my seat and we both run to each other, not caring if we push anyone out of the way. Time seems to stop as I'm pulled into my best friends arms and we immediately start to talk over one another. "oh my god-" "you got taller!" "you didn't tell me you were coming!" we both laugh as we pull back and look at each other before we hear claps from all around.

"This is the reunion I've been waiting for!" I hear Unique squeal to Tina as Britt and I smile at everyone before I'm hugged from behind. "You doing okay, bub?" I hear my sister ask me as she lays her head on my shoulder. "With you two with me? I've never been better" I lean back into her as we converse with the rest of the group, now only waiting for Mercedes and Rachel.

Authors note:
hi guys, it's been quite a while since i even entertained the idea of writing for this story. i had quite a few things happen in the span of the last few years and didn't have motivation to do anything if i'm being honest, not even get out of bed. with that being said, i'm feeling somewhat okay as of right now. i've gotten back into glee. with doing that, i feel like i'm grieving naya all over again. i know that sounds crazy to some, grieving someone you never met. but some days i genuinely find myself crying because of how much i miss someone i never got the honor of meeting. i say all of this to say thank you to the ones that have decided to stick around, i understand it's probably annoying having to wait so long for an update. i'm going to try my hardest to get chapters out semi regularly. thank you for your patience, i love you guys.