For All Things Holy || Chanlix

Chapter 35

Felix woke up to an empty couch, eyes wandering around the living room in search of Chan. He was no where to be seen, causing the blonde to let out a small sigh. He cringed at the feeling of dried up cum in his pants, cursing to himself before walking to the bathroom to shower.

It was almost 6 in the morning and Felix had school. He didn't really feel like going, but decided he would go anyway. He checked his new phone, seeing that Hyunjin blew up it up with texts and calls. The blonde let out a small smile while he read the texts.

Sexiest man you'll ever meet aka Hyunjinnie your bestie for life 😩:
where have u been bitch?!
9:32 PM

Sexiest man you'll ever meet aka Hyunjinnie your bestie for life 😩:
did you get in trouble?
10:02 PM

Sexiest man you'll ever meet aka Hyunjinnie your bestie for life 😩:
OMG JEONGIN JUST SENT ME A DICK PIC FUCK
10:35 PM

Sexiest man you'll ever meet aka Hyunjinnie your bestie for life 😩:
im gonna kick your ass when i see you tomorrow 👺
12:01 AM

15 Missed calls

Felix decided to wait until first period to respond, starting the shower and hopping in almost immediately. He let out a soft moan when the hot water ran down his body. He threw his head back while he wet his hair, mind flickering to the last few days.

So much has happened and Felix hasn't even given himself a moment to process any of it. It hasn't even been a week since he move in with Chan and so much has happened in such a short time period.

He moved out, started a whole new life with a boy he barely knew, got spoiled by said boy, and basically made a 180 in his life.

Yesterday was the first time he ever did anything sexual, cut class, and smoked weed. He knew that his parents would damn him to hell if they found out all the things he has done. Felix had finally came down from his adrenaline high from yesterday.

He couldn't help the underlying guilt that brewed the more he thought about it. Though guilt would never be enough to make him stop doing it, it was enough to make him sick.

Part of him still cared so much about what people thought of him. He still cared about his parents' opinion on him, and he still cared about his relationship with God.

He felt bad, yet he knew deep down he was too far into it now. He couldn't stop even if he wanted to. This new sense of freedom was addicting, and he refused to give it up now. No amount of guilt could change that.

The blonde proceeded to wash his hair while he gave himself the time he needed to think. He kept thinking about Chan and everything they've done together. A new type of feeling was brought into light since they were intimate. It was much more intense of a feeling that Felix didn't quite understand.

He always thought about Chan, always admired him, and always wanted to be closer to him. It's been that way since they first met, yet something was different now. The urge to be around Chan was much more intense now, the urge to kiss him, and to feel him suddenly became more of a thing to Felix.

He didn't understand much of it, and he was sure by now that this made him gay or bisexual, yet he didn't care about labels. He couldn't help but remember how it felt when Chan's hands roamed his body, violating him in the most sinful ways that would surely get him damned to hell.

The bible verses he used to spend hours reading that stated that it was a sin to commit adultery, seemingly disappeared from his memory when he thought of the way Chan's hand felt wrapped around his dick.

He had seemingly forgotten how it was a sin for man to lay with another man when he thought of all the lewd things he wanted Chan to do to him.

Felix replayed the moments over and over, growing both giddy and aroused at the memories. His heart pounded heavily while his breathing grew shallow.

Felix felt a small hint of guilt, yet the intoxicating feeling he got when he thought of Chan wasn't nearly enough to break him.

Felix resisted the urge to touch himself while he showered, quickly washing his hair and body before getting out. He pouted when he forgot to bring a change of clothes with him, grabbing a red towel out of the closet and wrapping it around his waist.

His senses heightened when he heard noise coming from the kitchen, a wild idea popping into his head once he knew Chan was awake. He couldn't help the pounding in his chest just at the mere thought of seeing Chan after last night. That rush of adrenaline made him go crazy.

Felix fixed his hair, manipulating it lay in a way that looked sexy. He intentionally made sure the towel hung low on one side to expose his v-line. He let out a small huff before walking out of the bathroom and down the hallway. His heart hurt at this point.

He walked out into the kitchen, eyes locking onto Chan's tired figure staring at his phone while eating cereal. Felix couldn't help the small pang of jealousy that struck when he saw him texting somebody. He could only hope it wasn't Seungmin.

"G-good morning." Felix shyly said in hopes of catching Chan's attention.

"Good morning." Chan said, not bothering to look up from his phone. Felix couldn't help but panic almost immediately when Chan didn't acknowledge him. Maybe he was stupid for thinking that he could get Chan's attention this way?

"Sleep well?" Felix asked once more, impatiently waiting for Chan to look his way.

"Yeah." He said, voice bland and lackluster like usual. For some reason Felix couldn't help but want to cry. Why was Chan acting this way? Why was he acting like nothing happened between them? Did it mean nothing to him?

The more Felix thought about it, the sadder he became. His eyes started to sting the longer Chan ignored him. Felix's brewing tears came to an immediate halt when Chan finally looked his way, seemingly taken aback for a small second.

"Have a good shower?" The brunette asked, finally giving Felix the attention he had been begging for at this point. The blonde felt himself melt at the small interaction, he couldn't help the smile on his face.

"Y-yes!" He happily said, cheeks burning while Chan's eyes danced up and down his body. He felt himself shiver under the brunette's gaze, nervously biting his lips.

"Without me?" He seductively asked, causing Felix to blush even harder. He mentally took note of how Chan's mood had changed when he decided to walk out in just a towel. Felix couldn't help but think that maybe doing things like this would be a good way of getting Chan's attention from now on.

The blonde only shyly nodded, biting his lips when Chan gestured for him to come closer. Felix couldn't help but immediately bend to his very command, straddling Chan on the chair he was currently sitting on. The towel had basically fallen off of Felix's body at this point, his naked body on display for Chan to see.

The blonde melted when Chan wrapped his arms around his small frame, muscular arms getting damp from the left over water droplets on Felix's body. They held eye contact for a while before Chan brushed a piece of hair out of Felix's face. Even Chan couldn't deny Felix's beauty. The boy was just too stunning.

"Kiss me." Chan softly spoke, to which Felix obliged. The blonde couldn't help but feel nothing but bliss the second their lips touched.

Time had passed, a once nervous Felix who would be worried about getting ready for school on time, now not caring about being late or missing classes. A few F's and absents never hurt anybody, right?

This was the same boy who never imagined kissing somebody, let alone doing drugs at any point, now doing those very same things with minimal regret.

Felix has always had a little rebellious side to him though, yet he's never acted on it due to fear and lack of ability. Chan was the only thing that made that fear go away, the only thing that helped set this side of him free. It was all thanks to Chan.

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