One Beat (Stray Kids Han X Reader) [COMPLETED]

Ch. 31: A Mistake or a Miracle

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(Back to the old perspective...)

Finals are just around the corner, now. And along with that comes my graduation...

I'm finally graduating from high school!

That means, living alone, preferred subjects, and perhaps... maybe...

Finally, I can meet and make some friends...

The bus I'm riding on suddenly stops, and I'm thrown forward from my seat, accidentally hitting my head on the backrest of the seat right infront of me.

"Ah! Ow..." I groan to myself as I move back, rubbing my forehead. To my frustration, I feel a big bump already forming on my forehead, and I hiss in annoyance. Around me, I can hear other passengers complaining about the sudden stop, as well.

Well, way to snap me out of my thoughts. I guess life really doesn't like me even just thinking about meeting people.

Naturally, the bus driver apologizes, and I tilt my head to look ahead and find out the reason why the bus suddenly stopped.

And in that moment, I realize my mistake.

"Wait, where..." I stand up from my seat, looking at the familiar bus stop right beside the bus. It definitely isn't the one near my home. Which only means that the bus I took...

"E-excuse me! Can I get down here for a sec?" I ask out loud for the driver to hear. He thankfully listens, and I get down; though, feeling hesitant as I do so.

It didn't take long before I had set my foot on concrete once again, and after the bus left, I'm only left looking at the seats right infront of me, the yellow light of the sunset shining down on it, just like the last time I came here.

So... I ended up here anyway.

It's been more than half a year now since I last came here. But it still feels... rather vivid, that memory.

I'd wonder how Jisung is doing now, but that just feels like something I'm not in any position to be doing. After everything I've done, especially.

Though, it was fun while it lasted. Every single bit of it, whether it was the ups and downs. And it would be a lie if I said I wouldn't wany go back to it over and over again... But right now, I'd just rather stay in the present.

The wind starts blowing again, and a chill runs down my spine as I pull my jacket tighter around me. And I turn to leave, only to stop in my tracks upon seeing someone.

Jisung's eyes are wide as he stands there, looking at me. But after a second or two, the look in his eyes turns forlorn, and he speaks with a shaky voice. "Y/N..."

Now if there was anything I would have ever wondered so much about this whole situation, it's that why...

Just why am I running away again?

"Y/N, you're here! You're actually-" Jisung starts running towards me, but as soon as I take a step back, he stops. And his expression falls. And now all I see in his eyes is pure dismay. "What..."

Just why do I keep running away?

"Jisung, I'm sorry, but I can't-"

"No, it's okay. It's okay, Y/N! I'm not mad at you for breaking up with me. We can just try again!"

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry, but I really can't!"

Why do I keep pushing him away, when I know he's been the greatest source of all my happiness?

"Y/N, listen to me-"

"No! If I listen to you, I'll end up going back to you again."

"Then come back to me!"

Stop... Please stop...

A gasp escapes me when Jisung finally grabs a hold of my wrist, and he looks at me with the most pleading eyes I have ever seen him wear...

Just why...

"Y/N... Please... Whatever it is... Whatever was the reason that you broke up with me, that you disappeared... I don't... care. Please, if you want, we can just stay as friends. Just please... Stay... with me..."

If I knew... If I only knew what to do...

"Jisung... I'm sorry..."

If I wasn't so immature...

I pull my hand back, but he refuses to let go of me.

"Y/N, just why don't you want to see me again? It's not that you hate me, is it?"

"It's not that! Just..."

Then maybe...

"Just let me go already!" Suddenly, Jisung loses his grip on my hand, and a silent gasp escapes me as I fall back, onto the road behind me.

Just maybe...

My eyes turn when a bright light suddenly flashes onto my face, and everything seems to slow down... As I look ahead, and I see Jisung running towards me with a frantic face.

I would have avoided...

"Y/N!!!"

... something like this.

The loud sound of two heavy things bumping into each other echoes across the street, and as all that happens, I had already lost my sense of direction as my vision blurs...

What would you have done...

If one afternoon, on your way back home and you're all alone, and the ghost of the past suddenly comes to haunt you?

If I only knew what to do, then maybe...

Maybe I would have been able to avoid something like this.

But just like usual, of course, Destiny was ever so cruel. And I fell, straight into darkness, too late to back out now.

... The last thing I remember being the sirens wailing as I blacked out.