One Beat (Stray Kids Han X Reader) [COMPLETED]

Ch. 28: A Lonely Autumn

Time passed by too quickly.

I felt it passed by too quickly, but maybe that was just to bring me back to the day we first met, before time would slow down there. To have me rot in my sadness as I wallowed over what could have been our first anniversary.

Guess I ruined it all, huh?

The bus soon stopped, and I got down, onto the bus stop where we first found out about our... "condition". I wonder if that would still happen now. Not to mention... Seeing how this place is completely empty this afternoon, I wonder where Jisung is now... What he's up to and all...

Almost everything around me is covered in a yellowish tint projected by the setting sun. And not too far from here, I can almost hear the sea waves lapping at the beach.

I'm almost afraid to turn in that direction. Like a ghost from the past would come and haunt me if I did...

"Snowflakes are falling..." As I stare at the bus stop's empty seats, I begin singing softly... slowly... to that first song we once shared. "We're getting further apart...

" I miss you...

"I miss you..."

My voice cracks, and I immediately stop there. And oddly enough, as soon as I did, it suddenly starts drizzling.

I turn my gaze towards the rain, colored yellow in the sunlight. In turn, I smile bitterly, and I just can't help but think how Destiny must have to be so cruel to treat me like this. To treat us like this...

So... Was all that...

Just a game?

I take a few more seconds just watching the rain, before I open my umbrella and begin walking to the bus stop on the other side of the road to go home.

I've done my business here. It's time to go back now...

Or at least... that's what I thought.

It didn't take long before a bus heading for my street comes along. At the same time, another bus stops on the one I had previously been on. Without paying much attention to it, I get on my bus, but as soon as I take my seat and look out the window right next to me, my eyes widen.

There, on the other bus stop, the bus continues on its way, revealing Jisung getting off. At the very same place I had gone to.

All at once, I feel my emotions coming at me like a wave, and as my bus begins to leave, I try to follow him with my eyes. He keeps his head hung low, and I panic as my bus begins to leave and he hasn't even turned to where I am yet. But!

But... do I even want him to see me?

I definitely want to see him, but do I want him to see me?

As soon as I had that thought, Jisung raises his head and turns to my bus. But I had already looked away, acting as if I didn't even notice him.

My bus continues leaving, and as it does, I feel my emotions coming once again. Like a wave, they sweep over me, making me feel more and more overwhelmed as more seconds pass. Until, eventually, I couldn't stop my tears from falling anymore.

I cried.

I cried like there was no tomorrow.

I cried for my love.

I cried for the light of my life.

I cried all the way home, because I didn't know what else to do.

I could have looked back. But I didn't, because I didn't know what to do. Out of every situation I could have not known to do, why this?

"I miss you..."

"Jisung, I miss you..."

"I'm sorry..."