Monster ~a.b

fifty-seven

3 weeks later:

December 12th

My hair was pinned, my shoes were hurting the backs of my ankles and I couldnt breathe from the tightness of the dress but it was all going to be worth it. I gave myself one last look in the mirror as Katie sat behind me, wiping her eyes.

"You are so beautiful". She sobbed and stood up, handing me a glass of champagne. "And so getting lucky tonight". She added and clinked the glasses.

"Are you sure after the wedding it's okay to watch the babies"? I asked once again.

"Niall and I have it under control. You and Austin enjoy your wedding for christ sake"! She laughed.

She hooked her arm around me as we walked out of the room and down the steps. The wedding is starting soon.

"Small guest list, just like you asked. Your mom and siblings are here, so everybody is all good". She smiled.

"Look at this beautiful sight"! Niall smiled as he walked in. He gave Katie a peck on the lips and a kiss on my cheek.

"You got a surprise visitor". He smiled and moved to the side. My eyes met with the hazel ones that I've came to know over the years.

"Troy". I smiled.

He gave me a smile back and walked up to me, embracing me into a tight hug. God did I miss him.

"You look beautiful, as always". He chuckled and stepped back. "Austin is one lucky guy". He spoke softly, that's when I realized.

"No date"? I asked and he rubbed the back of his neck.

"Ah, no. It's a long story. I'll tell you later. It's time for you to walk out". He said and grabbed a hold of my red rose bouquet.

I turned to Katie and Niall as they walked a head of me. When Austin agreed to have the wedding in the backyard I felt a little bit calmer. Honestly it was the safest option. When the music started I looked down at my dress one last time and took a deep breath. Today was going to be hard, because of my dad. It hurts to think that he wont walk me down the isle, or will never see his grandchildren grow up. I turned around and grabbed the table trying to calm my breathing. I sat down slowly, bringing my legs to my chest as I thought about my father. His face, his voice, something I'll never see or hear again. He was the definition of 'left us to soon'.

"Lani"? Katie called out but when she saw me she rushed to myside. "Oh my god are you okay"? She asked.

I felt my chest tighten as I gasped.

"Lani"! Katie asked again. She was worried, and I didnt mean to make it this way.

"Austin". I managed to get out.

"But it's bad luck-" she spoke but seconds later Austin was by myside.

"I got it. Go pass some time Katie". He spoke and pulled me into his chest.

I gasped again, trying to calm myself but it was making it worse. The pictures of my father were vivid in my mind. God do I miss him.

"Its okay baby, you're allowed to think of him". He soothed.

I pointed to my back as I pointed to the corset. Maybe Libby tied it to tight, but it was slowly killing me. Austin reached back and cut the ties with something, bringing fresh air into my lungs. That's when the tears came.

"Hes never going to see his grandchildren Austin, hes not here to walk me down the isle. Hes not here for me". I sobbed and grabbed a hold of his arm.

He let me cry on his suit, he let me cry in his arms. "Baby, hes watching over you. I promise. He is so proud of you and thinks the babies are as beautiful as you". Austin whispered.