sk8 The Infinity: More Than Faith (Miya Chinen x Male Reader OC)

Step 2

Pov Reki

"Alright, step one is complete", I heard Langa say as we walked out of the school building. "You've got a whole plan for this?! Did you know Miya was gonna pour his heart out like that?", I asked. "Look, you might think Miya is complicated, and so does he, but it's not rocket science. You've seen how they have loved eachother in the past months. They make eachother happy and that's all that should matter". "Why.. do you care so much for it.. I thought you disliked Hunter for kissing me..".

I couldn't put my finger on it with Langa. At one moment, he sais he's angry with Hunter and now he wants to help him.

"Because Hunter might have done something stupid, but he's still young. We are young. We are all gonna make mistakes but it's the people around you that help you through it. If I don't do anything to help, what kind of friend have I been"

I stopped walking for a second as if I had to process what Langa just said. "That is.. the sweetest thing you have ever said..". Langa turned around and looked me in the eyes. "Besides, he's your little brother, I don't want you to see me different as well". "Hey Langa? I've never realized, but.. are you angry at me?", I asked him. I mean.. I put us in a situation like this to begin with..

"What do you mean? With what happened between you and Hunter?", he asked. I simply nodded in reply. "Well, I'm not fond of the idea of it ever having happened in the first place, but I know you didn't know and that you did everything you could to keep him at a distance at that moement. It's not like you felt anything when he did".

An awkward smile appeared on my face as he said that. "N.. no! Of..course not", I said scratching the back of my neck. "See? So there's nothing to be mad about. Let's go see Hunter, Miya's got a race at S tonight and we've got to convince Hunter to be there tonight". Langa stuck out his hand for me to take it. I gladly took it and he started guiding me towards my place.

"Well go to Hunter right before we go to S, then he doesn't have time to change his mind"

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Pov Hunter

Crying.. It was all I could do the last week. Everything that made me think of Miya, brought tears to my eyes.

I have calmed down just enough for me to think it through, but all I came up with was.. I screwed up and that's it..

I never thought I could hurt someone I love.. but here I am.

The great disgrace..

I could only feel and think as if Takashi was right..

"I don't deserve you", I said while talking to the moon. I was sitting in the window with my legg dangling on the outside, and it was 11 pm..

I couldn't sleep. Not after this..

"I loved you and for some miracle you loved me back. I had been given a second chance yet I screwed up again"

Saying things like these out loud helps..

"How can a guy like me find someone as pure as you, Miya"

A long silence fell.

That ofcourse had to do with the fact that if I don't talk, silence was all there was.

There was no one here.. just me and the bright full moon in a cloudless sky.

"I'm a mess..", I started, "nothing more then a useless piece of trash that drags you down with him. Do you even think of me still?".

A small defeated smile appeared on my face.

"Imagine where you could have been without me. At the top probably.. but oh no, I HAD to let you down.."

I dug the nail from my index finger deep into my skin and slowly moved it down my upperlegg, leaving a red trail in the process.

It's to controll my emotions I guess.. it won't leave anything behind, but it's just enough for me to feel some relieve..

"I still love you so damn much", I said starting to feel my eyes get watery again, "But I don't think this is something we can fix. Hell, even I am mad at myself for kissing Reki"

I could feel the wind blowing passed my legg.

"I don't even know why I did it. I guess because I was angry? I thought you cheeted on me and for some stupid reason, that was a way out. God knows how.."

I sighed

"I don't see Reki that way, Miya.. I am so sorry about everything.."

"Should I let you go?"

"Will you find someone that is better for you?"

"Can I make that choice for you?"

"Is that choice even mine anymore?"

My mind suddenly painted memories of us in the sky. From when we met, to where we are..

"I miss you so much.."

Half a minute of silence passed before I heard someone knocking on the door.

"Hunter it's me. I'm coming in", I heard him say. I quickly covered my legg back up and turned my head back to the moon. He's gonna come inside, no matter what I say.

"How are you holding up", he asked with a concerned tone. "I'm fine Reki.. just.. leave me alone. I'll come out of my room tomorrow..".

"Well, I was wondering if you.. wanted to go to S with Langa and I. Just to clear your head. Get your mind off of everything".

"I don't know, Reki.."

"Please! It will help. I promise!", Reki said trying to convince me. I sighed and looked in Reki's direction.

"I guess getting some fresh air would be good.. I'll meet you downstairs in 30 minutes. Just.. nevermind. I'll see you then.."