𝐈 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐦𝐲𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬 | 𝟏# 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬 𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬

𝐹𝑖𝑓𝑡𝑦 | 𝐸𝑝𝑖𝑙𝑜𝑔𝑢𝑒

BROOK
~High Enough by K.Flay
~Church by Chase Atlantic
~I was never there by The Weeknd

I looked out the window, which luckily was next to me. The view of the world above the clouds is beautiful, and even at sunrise it still makes me nervous. I'm sitting on the plane now, in my thought I'm already thinking about what's going to happen in four hours. It makes me nervous about how this day will follow.

I look out the window and hear the music playing in my ears. My one hand goes to the other and starts picking at the nail. My foot goes up and down. Yes, I'm noticing how nervous I'm making myself. My parents are meeting Logan's grandparents. This is not just a small thing, but a very big one. I know fully well how much Logan loves his grandparents. They're the people who were there for him when his parents weren't, so they play a very big role for him. I can't compare this to the dinner with his parents, it's going to be a whole vacation, nor can I repeat that I got dinner with the family for 2 whole days.

I am even more ashamed when I think about the fact that the grandparents paid for the flight, the hotel, and everything else, not only for Logan and me but also for my parents who are sitting here somewhere on the plane.

I felt a hand on mine, preventing me from continuing to pick at my nails, which are now short and not that long. I looked at them. I wanted to stop doing that. Now I'm pissed that I couldn't stop myself from letting my grown nails grow longer.

I pulled my headphones off, so they stay over my neck. My eyes go to Logan, who was the one who put his hand on mine. "Stop stressing yourself out like that." He laughed about it. "I don't." "Oh you do, you can't ignore that anymore." I looked back at the window as he turns my head back towards him by the chin. "My parents are here somewhere." I smiled slightly and took his hand in mine, but didn't look away.

"Tell me, I think I'm already on the level that you tell me if you have something you're scared about." I take a short breath and turn my body to him so that he understands my body language, and that I give him my affection. "Do you realize what happened? My parents, your grandparents, are in the same hotel. You and me in the same hotel as our families. That's nothing that can't make you nervous, aren't you nervous?" I raised an eyebrow. I can't be the only one. "No, not really. I know your parents." That improves my mood even better.

"That does not make it better. Your grandparents are new people to me. It's not just a dinner, it's a whole day that we're going to spend." With a small breath, Logan leans back in his seat and closes his eyes. "I get it. I worry too much." I pulled my hands out of his grip. "I told you before that they love you, and they never even saw you. They would never dislike you." it calms me down when I hear that more often, because of the story that Logan made for me at the event, the grandparents really like me.

However, it can end really badly, I choked on the water while eating with his parents, but I really have to stay positive. I need to stop saying those words to myself and calm down my nervousness because that's how I get more nervous, as I already am. "Yeah got it." He straightens up and looks at me again. "There really isn't anything you need to worry about." he kissed me lightly on the lips. "Stop. I'm sure people hate us." I don't want to get a look at something like this myself, as maybe a single person, if a couple kisses. Even as a non-single person, it's unpleasant. I would, and will curse at them, to get a room. "I can kiss you whenever I want." he smiles. "No. If I say no, then not." "Of course." He then leans back and relaxed, which I did. During the flight, I put the headphones back on and tried to catch up on the sleep I didn't have this night.