never say never || changbin x reader •ff•

chapter 28 | desperate

after me and changbin paid the bill (cause i insisted on buying the drinks) we went to watch a movie at the cinema.

we looked at what was on and there wasn't much... except for 'minions, the rise of gru' so of course we chose that.  we got our tickets, sat down, and watched the film with a slushie each.

changbin is such a kid... i- he- hes adorable.

halfway through the film, he had finished his slushie but kept on slurping on his straw making that really irritating noise. there were other people in the theatre but he just continued.

before anyone could get annoyed, i touched his arm and whispered to him, "drink it from the actual cup, binnie, the straw is too loud, "

"hmmmm" he whined, doing as i said, "okay..."

"thankyou" i smiled at him, as he put his cup in the designated holder.

he faced back to me and out of nowhere, leaned in for a kiss.

was this it? was he genuinely going to kiss me after being as annoying as that straw all day?

nope.

instead he swerved away from me and slumped back in his chair.

after a while he took my hand and held it, occasionally playing with my fingers.

...what was i thinking? kiss me?

of course not.

"wanna get ice cream?" he asked as we left the cinema at around 20:00.

"not really, im still full from dinner,"

he hummed in response, "lets just walk then" and so we did.

we strolled along the sea front, hand in hand, just enjoying eachothers company.

i took this time to reflect on the things that have happened recently: school, kiera, courtney, the greenhouse,... changbin.

i look at how far we've come in our relationship: going from a silent boy, to him ,now my boyfriend, as annoying as ever.

I was once too, vulnerable but can finally stick up for myself. Thanks to changbin by my side.

although changbin was there that day to save me from jay, jake and ni-ki... i don't need saving anymore.

but that doesnt mean i don't need changbin.

hes always been there for me. i know i can always rely on him and trust him. he listens to me. if i ever need to speak to him, he will sit me down and he'll help.

even if he notices i've been a bit off, he will always check on me.

its not even all that emotional stuff that makes me attracted to him. He in general just makes me happy.

i feel comfortable around him. i can joke with him and not give a care in the world about anything else.

all the times we've play fighted, fallen over, made fun of eachother and called eachother out... they're the times when i can be my childish self again. but my happiest times are the simplest of times:

when we're just cuddling, my head rested on his chest, clinging onto him for dear life. When he wraps his arms around me and plays with my hair, strokes my back and maybe even gives an odd kiss on the head. being in his embrace, or being able to hold him., they're the best times.

i love when he holds my waist or my hand- just, any physical contact. i love it. it makes me feel warm and giddy... he makes me feel warm and giddy.

i got snapped out of my thoughts when changbin let go of my hand. He stopped and stood in front of me.

"why did you stop?" i asked looking up at him...

no reply.

"are you okay-?" i got cut off by him pulling me into his chest and wrapping his arms around me.

he nuzzled his head into the crook of my neck. My arms subconsciously hug him back.

He finally speaks, "your cold."

i didnt even realise it my self but he was right. I tried getting closer to him, using him as my human radiator.

i rested my head on his shoulder. "I missed this," i mumbled into his shirt.

"What do you mean?" He kissed my neck, sending shivers down my body.

"I missed hugging you"

"Hmm"

"Your so warm"

we just stood like that for a moment. His head hidden in my neck, our arms wrapped tightly around each other.

there weren't many people around, so i didnt care about anything else except for changbin and his warmth.

The stars began to appear in the night sky.

this is what i meant.

this is one of them happiest moments with changbin.

he moved his face away from my neck and looked into my eyes. He never let go of my waist.

Then, he glanced at my lips.

He leaned in.

his hands traveled from my waist and up my arms, to hold my face.

i was putty in his hands.

he looked into my eyes once again, this moment lasting forever.

And then he said those 8 letters...

"i love you," he whispered.

he weakly laughed before repeating himself.

"i love you, so much," and then he finally kissed me.

Butterflies swarmed my stomach as I instantly responded. our lips danced together, trying to match each others steady pace.

my hands found their way into his hair, tugging on it, hoping to deepen the kiss.

I had waited too long for this.

i don't know how long we stood there kissing for but it was perfect. the way our lips moved in sync, the way we fought for more.

it was everything i wanted.

we eventually pulled away and connected our foreheads, our lungs now desperate for oxygen.

we both sighed in content before i spoke up.

"i love you too,"

We both laughed softly at our current states as I let my forehead fall onto his shoulder. He lifted his hand to pat my head then began to play with my hair. We both closed our eyes, taking in what had just happened.

i had been desperate for this small action for days. though it wasn't small. it was never small.

physical affection. that's mine and Changbins love language.

Each others warmth and touch. that's what we craved for. that's what we loved.

being too clingy was no such thing with me and him. we wanted that. We wanted to be stuck to each other.

and we had that.

we were like that for a while before a cold breeze made me shiver.

"Come on,"

Changbin pulled away from me. He took my hand and began walking.

"I know where we can stay warm and have fun" he smiled making me suspicious.

"Where?"

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A/n
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