Nobody Compares

Chapter 12- Why Me?

*~*~*~* The AM

I woke up in pain. My eyes were stuck together as if they were glued. My thighs felt like they were on fire. My arms had bruises everywhere. So did my legs. They were so black you could tell I was beat on purpose, and cover up wouldn't cover it up.

Everyone would see. The worse part was how it happened. I was raped. Beaten. Hurt. Horrified. It was the scariest moment of my life. I was raped. I hadn't a say in it. I couldn't stop him. 

I turned to see Jake fast asleep in my bed. I stood up, grabbing some clothes. I only wore my panties which were put on poorly, and my bra. I got to the bathroom. What should I do? I closed and locked the door behind me. I quickly changed, and when I got out Jake was awake and getting dressed. 

"Fun night last night." I sent him a glare. How do I tell him to get out and leave me alone forever? "Don't dare tell anyone about it. I know some of your secrets. Like Niall." I starred at him. How did he know? As if he read my mind he answered my question. "You're a deep sleeper."

"I can tell the police. I can get you arrested." 

"But you did invite me into your room." He starred at me. He was right. I did invite him, and I was going to enjoy him but I changed my mind at the last moment. It was my fault. I basically planned it all. I deserved it. He was a teenager, he thought the same as me. Why did I have to change my mind? I wouldn't hurt right now. It was all my fault. "If you tell anyone about this, any of it, you won't see the light again. There could be more where that came from."

"Why are you doing this to me?" The salty tears began falling. Life was to unpredictable. It was horrid. "What did I do to you? Why do I deserve this?"

"Well Pipes, I knew who you were when I first met you. If you tell anyone, even your family, I will tell the world about Niall, and also a ton of other secrets I managed to read about. I can twist your words."

The words hit me like bricks. I realized I couldn't ever leave. I was stuck here. I was stuck with him. I couldn't get out. Never. I would have to pretend date him for my life or until he lost interest in me. That might never happen. 

"No," I mumbled. 

"What did you say bitch?" 

"I SAID NO. YOU WON'T TAKE MY LIFE AWAY FROM ME!" I screamed at the boy. I felt the red heat flush to my face. He turned red, and his eyes turned hard. I cowered back towards the door a little. He ran up, hitting me straight in the face. The blow pushed me backwards. I hit the wall, bouncing off it with a thud. My head flew to my head holding the spot he hit. 

He turned away and walked to the door. He furrowed his brows together as he turned around. He reached into his phone, taking it out. "Put make up or whatever on the bruises. We're going to eat with Mandee, Jaz, Kara, Josh, Zack, and Josh in an hour. Hurry up." I reached in my suitcase feeling defeated. I hadn't a choice in my actions. "Oh and get a nice motel. You might be in Us for a while." I sighed heavily. Why couldn't I have a 2011 tour besides the one that just ended? It hadn't been much more than a few weeks since that fateful ending in Japan. It was maybe a week since my fight with Hare Bear. Worst part was I couldn't see Niall, Harry, Gemma, dad, anyone in England for as long as Jake wanted.

I was utterly terrified of Jake, and it made me feel like I powerless. 

*~*~*~*~* Present day

I pulled the stockings up my legs. I had turned to the clock. It was just after midnight in America. I had been here for more than a year and a half. Jake had been my boyfriend since then. Sadly, I never gained interest in him. I never liked him even a little.