Nobody Compares

Chapter Twenty-Seven- Suicide Attempttion

MAY BE TRIGGERING TO SOME.

When it turned 5 Pm, I told Niall I was going to go pack. I left the 50 Shades of Grey book in next to the condoms, which were the only thing in the drawer now. By 8 Pm, the house was spotless, and everything was packed. Niall packed the night before, so he didn't have to worry. The day passed ridicously quick. 

At 9 Niall fell asleep. We just ate cereal for dinner. I was the only one in the house awake. I wasn't interested in watching any movie, so I just sat and thought. Eventually I got an idea. I turned a lamp on since the sun set. I got the magazines Niall bought. After tearing every One Direction poster out, drawing on Taylor Swift's poster, and making The Wanted look like pretty girls, I decided to read every One Direction article. 

Niall got 9 magazines, all different ones. I tore out every picture of the boys. I had 10 Niall pictures, 12 Harry, 9 Liam, 9 Louis, and 10 Zayn. And 16 of them altogether. They were my handsome men. 

I read all the Harry articles in every magazine. A few caught my eye. One was about me coming back from Us, but it didn't reveal anything I was worried about. One saying Harry and Taylor were getting back together, but honestly I knew they weren't. There weren't many Zayn articles. Nor Liam. I read the few Louis ones, and finally I rewarded myself with all the Niall articles. They were all basically the same. Finally I saw one I wanted to read. It was titled: Niall Horan and Piper Clark - the new celebrity it couple?

NIALL HORAN AND PIPER CLARK - THE NEW CELEBRITY IT COUPLE?

I'm sure every fan has heard by now - Piper Clark and Niall Horan have been getting close. Despite all the 'No we're not dating' speeches they've made, are they lying? Are they dating?

After Piper's brother, Harry Styles, came back with his band members of One Direction, Piper and Niall have been caught being quite close. For instance, right after they met they stole this smooch, not realizing they were caught. That cause quite a stir since Piper at the time, recently broke up with Bo, her model boyfriend. After the kiss Piper flew off to America where she met another boy - Jake. They were dating for a year until reportedly, at a recent ball Jake and Harry fought, Jake leaving alone.

Piper, you have so many boyfriends! When are you going to slow down? After the fight paparazzi heard banging and screams from Piper's house in Cheshire. Whoa, Piper, do you think Jake approves? 

After that, a couple of days ago on Piper's 21th birthday, Niall Horan was seen carrying a sleeping Piper out to his car, driving to the airport. No one but their families know where the love couple are now. Piper, when you get back, are you going to be pregnant?

I felt tears brim at my eyes. Stop crying, they don't know the real you. They don't know about you. They don't know about us! They don't know about you and Niall. I flipped to the end of the magazine where they had a page for Twitter comments. At the top it said: Censored, YOUR THOUGHTS, WHETHER THEY BE MEAN OR NOT ITS THE TRUTH

Almost every one was about me. There were two Big Time Rush ones, a few One Direction ones, but the rest were about me.

@twitter.name: piper clark used to be my inspiration but shes a sl*t now

@twitter.name: EW BACK OFF PIPER NIALLS MINE

@twitter.name: niall can do better.

@twitter.name: ew piper who u going 2 date nxt ???? liam????? harry?

@twitter.name: piper kill urselffff :D

@twitter.name: is niall blind , does he need glasses , he can have mineeee

The tears couldn't hold up anymore. I threw the magazine across the room, and whimpered. I sobbed as hard as I could. No one liked me. Not one person. Everyone thought I was a slut! No one even knew! What happened to #WeRespectNiper?

I curled up in a ball in the chair, and cried my heart out. I took a deep breath, and walked outside. I tiptoed past the bedroom, hoping not to wake Niall up. When I walked outside I was hit with a gust of freezing air. It had to be around 40°. I slammed the door accidently, hoping Niall didn't get up. I grabbed the flashlight that was left of the tree stump outside by the cabin. I walked down the trail barefoot, hoping to find the pond. Finally I met the rock that I recongnized. 

I stuck my foot in, as the cold water iced my ankle. The pain was worse. The pain of the words wasn't something I could control. The pain of the pond I could. I jumped in, fully clothes. I stuck my head under, swearing through air bubbles. I tried to keep myself under with a sudden hope to die.

My original plan wasn't to try to hurt myself, but it turned out like that. I tried to get under a rock as much as I could but it was hard. I squeezed my eyes shuts, and let out all my breath. On instinct I tried breathing in water, but it began drowning me. I gasped for breath, but I couldn't move. I tried to get to air but my clothes were to heavy. I began drinking as much water as I could. I knew it didn't help, but I couldn't help it. My vision started getting black like the night, and soon I couldn't feel anything. I felt like I just walked into a freezer at a butchers market.

I felt someone frantically pull my shirt off. You're alive, idiot! I screamed at myself. I couldn't open my eyes. I only felt. A stranger is about to get you naked! I tried to do something but the darkness was pulling me in quicky, and my body was getting numb. I felt my body be jerked up, and my bra unclasped. After that I didn't feel anything. I knew I was dying. I knew I wouldn't live the rest of the night. I just hoped I'd die with dignity.