Too Bad, So Sad.

chapter two: hospital room.

Well shit..here I am seventeen years old in a fucking hospital bed hooked up to a machine and having an oxygen mask on my face. Why am I in this predicament? I have no idea. All I remember is going to a party and confronting Razz with all her mixed signals only to find out she didn't hook up with Kel and made it all up to see if I had feelings for her. She hurt me severely by her forcefulness, and her selfishness.  But that's not what's important, what's important is the fact that a blonde haired girl and a gang of scarred dudes beat the crap out of me whilst they were seizing drugs. Well, at least I'm alive and can see my mystery girl again whenever she chooses to return. Hopefully soon. Another problem I have is Kel and Razz. Both of them screwed me over. If Kel is alive I'm for sure beating his ass for having dirty laundry that everyone got in the crossfire of.

I heard sniffling…oh great Razz is okay but she looks a wreck. She wept for me. She cried for me and all I did was stare in wonder. Her tear stains are still evident on her pale white dress. Her red pumps were taken off and thrown somewhere across the hospital room. Her burgundy tinted full lips trembled as her dark brown eyes moved up and down surveying the damage. My voice box was broken. I had no effective way to tell her to stop crying, I'm fine but that'd be a lie because the truth of it all was I'm not. I'm hooked up to machines with an oxygen mask. Wouldn't make a difference if I lied to be fair since I lie all the time.

Although,  I wish she never convinced me to go to that party. I wish my mystery girl was the one who saved me and took me to the hospital. She should be the one sitting beside me with teary eyes and concern riddled in her body language. Instead I was left with Razz, a girl I had wasted my feelings on. Razz’s hand covered mine and all I could focus on was the shakiness of her hand. She is petrified. I don’t pity her. I moved my hand away, removing her grip on my hand. She doesn’t get to touch me. The only thing I feel for her now is resentment and disgust.

She croaked out "Thank God you're alive." Yeah thank God I’m alive and weak and have to listen to all your apologies without expressing my newfound need to be away from you, yeah I am so lucky to be alive and in so much pain. I am lucky to be placed in a position of guilt due to the “love” she has for me. Well, tough shit this is her fault. I don't care if my blame is misplaced; she and Kel are the sole reason why I ended up like this. I have every right to at least not want them around me.

"The doctor said you had a fractured rib and a lot of bruising, you got lots of cuts on your chest and you got bruising from being choked. This girl named Saturn managed to call 911 during the chaos and that's what saved you. I thanked her a million times but she said she knew you and that this was thanks for something she didn't elaborate on. Immediately after that she spoke to the cops. There are ten people dead but they weren't part of the senior class, they were some random college students." Well this is overwhelming information. I couldn't reply so all I did was blink to show I was comprehending everything she had unloaded on me. "I hid in the room like you said I guess I wasn't the target I have no idea why they attacked you…"

Well I'm in the same boat Razz I got no damn idea why this happened. All I know is Razz is  public enemy number fucking one.

"Miss Sie," a small voice came from the door. She was a nurse dressed in a loose white shirt and blue slacks. She had a soft expression on her face expressing deep concern. "I'm here to check on your vitals. We've called your guardian and she should be here soon." Greaaaat Auntie Koi will blow her top once she sees me. Not because she cares but because I'm a liability.

Razz spoke up timidly , "how long will she be hospitalized?"

The nurse gave a hopeful smile "Three days if we're lucky we've given Miss Sie some strong pain relievers so we hope she'll heal soon. She's very lucky no organs were damaged."