My teacher. | l.s. [Rewrite]

It gets worse

Louis and I were lying in bed since Niall had left and Liam and Zayn had also disappeared into their room an hour earlier, but the atmosphere between us was tense. Not only because we were fighting practically all day, but also because of the situation earlier in the room. We both didn't know how to deal with it and I didn't know how to start this conversation and apparently neither did Louis.

We were both on the phone, my head was resting on Louis' shoulder and I had both hands raised above my head so I could see my display. Louis was scrolling through his phone with his free hand, but every time I looked at him he was lazily looking through his instagram feed without actually looking at what was going on there, so I assumed he just wanted to occupy himself to avoid the conversation.

I thought back to the first time he had punished me and a warmth ran through my body at the memory. At first I didn't know what to feel when he was so harsh and dominant with me. He had always been quite dominant, but this was another side of him that surprised me. He was always gentle with me, but when he had punished me he was a complete other person and I had to admit that it turned me on more than it probably should. Not only by his appearance but also because of his roughness. Don't get me wrong, I loved gentle sex, but rough sex was exciting and I hoped we would do it more often and from the way he looked earlier I guessed he wanted that too, but I didn't understand why we couldn't talk about it normally and it bothered me.

I sighed and put the phone aside when I no longer knew what to do with it. I turned on my side so I was facing Louis and looked at his face, observing his features. He perceived my gaze on him and looked at me smiling slightly before turning back to his phone to which I rolled my eyes because it was honestly ridiculous how we were both acting aound each other at the moment. After a few more minutes I sat up because the silence was too much for me and I hoped to get any reaction out of him but he didn't even take his eyes off the phone.

"I better go home." I muttered when I had enough and this finally made his eyes snap over to me.

"Why?" He wondered.

"Obviously we're not talking to each other for whatever reason, so I might as well lay in my own bed bored out of my mind. I don't have to be here when you can't even look at me." I huffed. Louis put the phone down on the bedside table and sighed sitting back against the headboard. He looked at me intently before speaking up eventually.

"I don't know what to say honestly. It's...it's weird. I don't know how to act or what to feel right now, let alone what to say to you." He admitted and I looked down at my lap for a second before looking up again.

"But sooner or later we have to talk about it don't you think?" I asked. I was quite dreading this conversation, but we really needed to talk about it if we didn't want to ruin our relationship because of that.

"Yes." He sighed, but didn't speak further.

"Are you... are you into that kind of thing?" I asked slowly avoiding his eyes. There was a silence and it made me nervous.

"No, I...I don't know really. I don't know why I acted this way, but when I was so angry at you the thought of..." He began nervously and now looked at me with a cautious look on his face. He inhaled deeply and breathed out through his nose nervously. "...spanking you came to mind and this...well..." He struggled to find the right words and honestly I couldn't blame him. "Fuck, it turned me on, ok?" He rushed out rather harshly and quickly lowered his gaze. Although I knew it already, hearing him saying this made me gasp and a wave of heat ran through my body straight to my groin. Fuck, not now please.

"S-so you've never done this before?" I asked him slowly placing my hands on my lap so he couldn't see my growing member.

"No. I've never had anything like that before. When we...you know, before all this shit happened with Nick, that night before was the first time I did something like this." Louis said helplessly.