My teacher. | l.s. [Rewrite]

Secret feelings

When I woke up the next morning there was no message from Louis and I furrowed my eyebrows at that in confusion. Since our meeting up in the forest he sent me a message every morning and it was strange there wasn't one on my display now. Maybe it had something to do with his behaviour yesterday.

I got out of bed and jumped into the shower before brushing my teeth. I was just standing in front of my closet contemplating what to wear when I couldn't stop myself from thinking about Louis. Sighing to myself I grabbed the phone off the bed and dialed his number.

"Hello?" I heard from the other line. Louis didn't sound like he had just woken up so he had been awake for a while, so why hadn't he texted me?

"Good morning." I chirped overly happy to see his reaction to that.

"Morning." He said briefly and now I was sure he was pissed. "What's the matter?"

"I just wanted to call you. You didn't text me, so I thought maybe you overslept or something." I said partly truthfully.

"Oh, must've forgotten to text you." He said without any emotion.

"Okay, enough of that. What's going on with you? You've been acting strange since yesterday." I got straight to the point.

"Nothing, Harry." He sighed deeply.

"Why do you never talk to me?" I asked frustrated. What surprised me was that he laughed humourlessly at my question.

"I never talk to you? Really? I wanted to talk to you yesterday, but you avoided the fucking question and then you ran home so you didn't have to talk to me about it, Harry!" And now he was really pissed and I swallowed thickly.

"I just wanted to work on my essay." I argued weakly, but it was a lame excuse and I knew that he knew it too.

"You could have told me you didn't want anything serious, but stop with the fucking excuses!" He exclaimed angrily and now something inside of me snapped. Oh. He was pissed off because he thought I didn't want to be in a relationship with him. Shit... That's why he was so weird after I told him to talk about it later and when I had to go home. Now it all made sense. The thing was that I wanted something serious between us so badly, but until now I was afraid that my feelings for him were stronger than his and he just wanted to have some fun. Even now I didn't know if he felt the same for me, but at least he seemed to want to be in a relationship with me, so that should count for something, right?

"You know what? Forget it." He laughed sarcastically when I didn't reply to him.

I realised I had zoned out for quite a while and by the time I opened my mouth to say something he had already hung up on me. Great, Harry. I complained to myself and hurried to pick out my clothes. I decided on black skinnies as usual and a red hoodie along with my white converse. I ran down the stairs and grabbed a banana for the way and was out the door in a flash, but not before I grabbed my backpack and shrugged on a coat because it was freezing outside. I rushed to school when halfway I realised that I couldn't talk to Louis in private there anyway. But still, maybe there was a chance to clarify everything, I had to try it. Besides, I didn't want to argue on the phone with him and discuss a topic like that. I wanted to look him in the eyes when I told him how I felt. I probably wouldn't say that I loved him that would be strange and he would probably run for the hills, but other than that I wanted to be honest with him. It wasn't as if I had anything to lose now anyway.

I rushed into the building twenty minutes before the bell rang, but the halls were already full of students so there was no chance of talking to Louis now, that was if he was already here. I went to my locker and turned the lock to open it. I sighed as I pulled out the books I needed and closed it again leaning against it scrolling through Instagram until Niall and Liam arrived.