The silent demon hunter: Kiyotaka Ayanokoji

SS. Genya: What do i do?

I lay in a bed next to my little stalker. At this point my mind was becoming numb to all of my thoughts. It was humiliating. Ayanokoji had been able to fend the demon off for a extremely long time and was also able to kill it whilst.. I.. got completely demolished. I sighed in an audible frustration.

What would Sanemi think of me? Well I guess I already have the answer to that. He despises me. He's probably embarrassed I joined the corpse. I was just an extremely cheap imitation of him. Even when I tried to be like him I still can't do anything.

It made me want to scream. I can't do anything right. And him.. ayanokoji he was stronger than me even if it hurt to admit, someone that might worthy of sanemis forgiveness if he was in my situation. Well no.. he probably wouldn't need that forgiveness, I can't see anybody making the stupid mistake I made. I still wake up in cold sweats thinking about that day.

My mind had tried to wrap my head around what had happened and how I could've won but I came up blank every time. How the hell was I meant to kill it. That disgusting parasite had to have a weakness even just one thing. The funny thing was that I had been takin out by illusions. Figments of my imagination had beaten me in the end.

Was trying to be like Sanemi a good thing? But I guess it had to be. If it wasn't then he wouldn't be a hashira. I want him to speak to me like I'm a human again. Like he cares even if it's just a little I want him care about me. But what did I expect of him? To care about someone who accused him of murdering our mother, it was utterly disgusting, even worse than demons.

I Looked at the child beside me. All I could see was a combinations of Sanemi and me in him. Confused but strong. Broken but fixable. In that sense I envied him. He protected his mom even after she died.

On that note what was I going to do to help him. He was probably in shock. I wouldn't leave him until I could make sure he was ok. I was hoping after I could get him back on his feet he could stay here until he could choose his path. Maybe he could become what I'm not. Maybe he wouldn't have to act like he was strong instead he would be. He wouldn't have to put up a defensive shield around him. How..

How could I get him to look at me without disgust. How could I gain his respect. How could I get him to look at me as if i am anything but a pesticide. Like I'm an embarrassment to him. How could I get strong enough? I couldn't even use breathing styles.

What do I do?

A/N:

This chapter was definitely my shortest one so far but it didn't need to be any longer. I just wanted to show genyas thoughts after this mission.

Also I was wondering if you'd be interested in kiyo doing a mission or maybe some training with a hashira? If so which one?

I am planning to make kanao an ss before the next arc