Walang Forever: Ang Diary ng Bitter

Chapter Six: The Reality of Bitterness

-Angie's POV-

I'm home at last. After taking a half bath, I took my dinner alone. My dad wasn't there. He was probably at work doing some overtime works. I knew that being a CEO in a multi-million company is a terrible job. My dad is really good in multi-tasking yet sparing some time with me is difficult for him. Paradox, isn't it? Well, I can't blame him for that.

I opened my laptop to finish the last part of the school's publication. Gosh, the deadline is fast approaching and I should finish this. I must double my time and effort for this.

It took me 3 hours to finish the editing and did some lay-outing. It's passed 9:00 already and I have so much paperworks to do. I'm already tired. Yet, I need to extend extra time this night to finish those. Daig ko pa ang taga-senado kung mag-overtime. Ansabe?

The scenes of what happened today suddenly popped out to my mind. Believed me, I really didn't know why. I had neither reason nor stimulus to my brain that made those images popped out. And why should I?

Fact. I can't do anything about it. It's my brain who's in control.

On the other side of my realization, the new guy in the campus made my day different – both good and worse. Of course, mas madami ang worse. Nasira kaya ang sched ko. Yet despite of ruined things happened today, hindi man lang ako nakaramdam ng galit o inis sa mokong na yun. In fact, naawa pa nga ako. (What! Naawa?!). Kabago-bago pa lang niya sa campus, na-disgrasya na. At ako pa na naturingang "student guide" niya ang nakagawa nun sa kanya. See?

Well, I would be unfair to him if I would show rudeness to him especially that he didn't know everything about me. I mean, he didn't know me well in the first place. We're just in the phase of "getting to know" each other.

Should I be interested in knowing him better? Should I be serious in taking this stuff?

Pero panu na ang allergy ko sa boys?

Arghh. I'm confused already!

To ease the bewilderment in me and to temporarily excuse myself from this great dilemma of how's and why's, I checked my FB account to read my notifications and messages.

What! Ilang oras lang akong nawala sa FB world, andami nang notifications and messages.

I read the posted quotations and shout-outs in my wall. Of course, hindi mawawala ang pag-comment. Umandar na naman ang pagka-commentator ko. I guess, that's a part of being an editor-in-chief.

Hindi naka-ligtas ang mga love and sweet quotes from my sharp and pointed dagger-like comments.

First posted quotation:

POST: Love is the sweetest thing a person could feel (with hearts as background).

 

I started encoding on the comment box.

COMMENT: Nope. Love is the bitterest you could ever tasted. The sweetness is just temporary but the bitterness lasts longer.