Walang Forever: Ang Diary ng Bitter

Chapter Eight: Forgive and Forget

-Drei's POV-

Right after Angie's friends opened up about that place; there were changes in her mood. That place made her sad somehow. The glow in her face that I saw earlier suddenly disappeared. The shine in her eyes suddenly gone into gloom. Just like a sunny day which suddenly turned into rain without any signs of coming.

I did not even ask her about that matter. Do I have the right to ask to at least to be bothered by her feelings? Again, I don't know about her past. (Then, how would I know about everything if I wouldn't ask?)

We finished our food and went directly to the gym for their volleyball practice. We all went in silence. Nobody even Angie's friends tried to break the silence that covered us.

"Drei, look for a comfortable place", she told me when we arrived at the gym. "We'll just change for the practice".

"Yah", I answered even the questions were still buzzing in my mind.

 

-Angie's POV-

"Best, are you okay?", nag-aalalang tanong ni Shandy. She felt that it was her fault why I acted this way.

"Best, sorry ha. Hindi kasi namin alam na hindi ka pa..." Pauline started with concern.

"Ano ba kayo? I'm totally okay". I knew what Pauline will say that's why I interrupted her. I tried to conceal what I really felt. I didn't want them to worry about me.

I opened my locker to get my volleyball jersey. I went inside the dressing area to change.

"Best, mauna na kami?", Shandy asked. Maybe, they were trying to give me some space.

"Cge best, susunod na ako. Madali na lang 'to", I said even I haven't started yet.

Parang bumagal bigla ang ikot ng mundo at ang bigat ng pakiramdam ko na hindi ko kayang magpalit  ng damit. Hindi ko maipaliwanag ang nararamdaman ko. I hate this kind of feelings 'coz I thought it will kill me softly.

"Best, okay ka lang talaga ha?", Pauline asked in her very concerned voice.

I knew that they really wanted to comfort me yet they can't. They knew that when I act this way, it's better not to talk to me.

I knew also that they felt sorry for what had happened earlier. I can't blame them for my reactions. It's my feelings in the first place.

"Yah, nothing to worry about", I just said trying to let them not to worry about me.

I heard the door closed and nobody was there.

I felt empty inside me and suddenly my tears flowed to my cheeks. Even how hard for me to stop it from flowing, it won't. Kusa lang siyang umaagos. Ito na siguro yung mga luhang pinigilan ko ng isang taon. Mga luha ng kalungkutan. Kalungkutang itinago ko ng matagal dito sa aking puso.