A Narnians Memories

IV | the truth

"Ca-Ca-Caspian!" gasped Lucy as soon as she had breath enough. For Caspian it was; Caspian, the boy king of Narnia whom they had helped to set on the throne during their last visit. Immediately Edmund recognized him too. All three shook hands and clapped one another on the back with great delight.
"But who is your friend?" said Caspian almost at once, turning to Eustace with his cheerful smile. But Eustace was crying much harder than any boy of his age has a right to cry when nothing worse than a wetting has happened to him, and would only yell out, "Let me go. Let me go back. I don't like it."
"Let you go?" said Caspian. "But where?"
Eustace rushed to the ship's side, as if he expected to see the picture frame hanging above the sea, and perhaps a glimpse of Lucy's bedroom. What he saw was blue waves flecked with foam, and paler blue sky, both spreading without a break to the horizon. Perhaps we can hardly blame him if his heart sank. He was promptly sick.

"Hey! Rynelf," said Caspian to one of the sailors." Bring spiced wine for their Majesties. You'll need something to warm you after that dip." He called Edmund and Lucy their Majesties because they and Peter and Susan had all been Kings and Queens of Narnia long before his time.
Rynelf returned with the spiced wine steaming in a flagon, and four silver cups. It was just what one wanted, and as Lucy and Edmund sipped it they could feel the warmth going right down to their toes. But Eustace made faces and spluttered and spat it out and was sick again and began to cry again and asked if they hadn't any Plumptree's Vitaminized Nerve Food and could it be made with distilled water and anyway he insisted on being put ashore at the next station.
"This is a merry shipmate you've brought us, Brother," whispered Caspian to Edmund with a chuckle; but before he could say anything more, Eustace burst out again.

When he woke up he tried not to laugh at the thought of Eustace. The boy was really funny when he was just crying and screaming about a Kidnapping. He got up and sat down next to the window. It was around sunrise and he was to lazy to go down stairs. He watched the sun as it climbed up to the sky. Soon Remus woke up as well and sat down next to his friend. "Why are you up so early?" Remus asked. Sirius looked at him. "I was... Thinking." "You know how to do that?" The werwolf asked surprised. Sirius gave him a death glare. "I hate you, Moony." The other one just laughed.

It was dinner and Sirius was on his way to the great hall. He had decided today was going to be the day he would talke to James. He entered and went to the other three. He sat down in front of James and just started at the boy. Still not sure what to say he stayed quiet. "There is nothing going on between me and lily, really! Those are just rumors!" Sirius finally said. James stopped in his movement. "Someone saw you... with lily." James said without looking at him. "We were just talking about... stuff." Sirius said. "She was laughing at something you said like- like... you were close..." James said finally looking up. Anger all over his face. "She was laughing because of a funny story I told her! It wasn't anything else... And yes maybe I have been close to her since first year but I'm not into her!" Sirius nearly shouted. A few Griffindor's looked over to them. "Since first year?" James asked him. Sirius stopped. He didn't mean to reveal that. "I- there are thinks that I never told you! Thinks about me that only lily knows, so she is the only one I can talk to about it! It's that simple!" Sirius said. "We're your friends! Why didn't you tell us? What didn't you tell us?" James asked. "There are thinks you don't want to talk about, and there are thinks about my past that I don't want to even think about!" Sirius said. "Oh wow we get it your parents were awful we had that talk it was bad but don't act like you died!" James shouted now. The entire hall became quite. "BUT I DID! I DID DIE, JAMES! AND I LOST ALL MY FRIENDS, I HAD TO LET THEM LEAVE EVEN THOUGHT I KNEW I WOULD NEVER SEE THEM AGAIN! EVERYONE LEFT AND I WAS ALONE UNTIL I LEFT! I HAD TO FIGHT MY ENTIRE LIFE TO STAY ALIVE JUST TO DIE IN THE END ANYWAYS! YOU DON'T KNOW SHIT ABOUT MY LIFE!" Sirius felt the tears leaving his eyes. He stood up and left the hall. Lily also got up. "Sirius..." She said and before she followed him she looked back at James, who was sitting there speechless. "Look what you have done Potter." She said and went after the former King.

When James opened the door to the astronomy tower he saw Sirius and lily just sitting next to each other. They both looked to the door. Sirius immediately turned his head away. Lily looked over to him. "should I leave?" She asked quietly. Sirius nod. The redhead got up and left, not without giving James a death glare when she past him. James slowly sat down next to his best friend. "I'm sorry, I should have asked you before-" "I can remember." Interrupted Sirius James. James looked at him not understanding what he was talking about. "My past life. I can remember it." Sirius said and looked at James. James eyes wide. "Really?" He asked. Sirius nod. "I didn't had luck with family in that life ether... My mum died when I was born. My dad was killed by my uncle who also tried to kill me years later when I was 13." Sirius said to James. "Why did he do that?" "He wanted the throne. Oh right I was a prince... well later king of a land!" Sirius said. "King Sirius? Sounds stupid." James said jokingly. "My name was actually Caspian. So King Caspian." Sirius said. Than Sirius started to tell James all about Narnia. It's storys about the king's and queen's of old, how he met them, about and Jill, about his wife and son. He told James about every adventure and war he fought in. They talked until it was already dark and finally walked back to the common room.
When they came walking in laughing and joking Peter and Remus were more than relieved. Soon after they went back to there dorm and fell asleep.