THE SUN AND THE MOON | JIKOOK

32. My Fault

"Are you okay, Mr. Park?" Jungkook asked Jimin who was laying his head on a desk in his practice room.

"Yeah. Just feeling nauseous" the dancer smiled at him who smiled back.

"You should take a rest" Jungkook kissed his forehead and Jimin grinned dumbly at the gesture.

"Yeah" he nodded and laid his head on Jungkook's shoulder as soon as the younger sat beside him.

"Mr. Jeon?" Jungkook hummed.

"There is this guy who follows me" Jimin started.

"Who is that?" he felt Jungkook stiffen.

"He said that he is Hyunjin. He asked me out at the stadium that day and again today morning he found my number and called me. He said he would meet me soon" he added. Jungkook hummed thinking.

"I'll take care of him, don't worry" Jungkook caressed Jimin's sides.

"Thank you for being honest with me" The younger let out.

"Of course, I would be and you should too" Jimin puffed his cheeks. Jungkook could not help but lean down to kiss those luscious cheeks. Jimin pressed his lips together, blushing. He leaned on his boyfriend's shoulders and intertwined their fingers, enjoying their break time.

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It was time for Jimin and Jungkook to get off of work. Jungkook walked to Jimin's practice room and the elder was teaching some trainees some moves. As soon as he saw his boyfriend, he dismissed the class. Jimin changed his clothes and the couple left for Jimin's apartment.

"I'll take a shower," Jimin said and the younger nodded while plopping on the sofa and going through his phone. Jimin looked back once at Jungkook before going into his bedroom and locking the door. He rummaged through his wardrobe and finally found a pregnancy test kit which he took from his hyung. He went into the bathroom to test and came out with a pale face.

The test showed two red lines. Jimin was mortified. He hurriedly rambled through his drawers and found his birth control pill. He checked the date. It was not expired.

"But how?" he said breathlessly with a sweaty face and his hands were shaking.

"Jungkookie is still too young" he muttered as if he was not.

"He won't allow this...." Tears began to flow freely as he felt like the air was knocked out of his lungs.

"He still has a future" he cried quietly holding the test kit close to his heart.

"H-how can I be so reckless?" he clutched his head as it began hurting.

"Hyung, Jimin" he heard Jungkook knocking on the door. Terrified, he wiped his red face.

"Are you okay, baby? I heard sounds" Jungkook sounded worried that it broke Jimin's heart more.

"I-im fine, Kookie" Jimin shouted back but Jungkook sensed the anxiety in his voice.

"Open the door" the younger demanded.

"I'm g-getting dressed" Jimin panicked and ran to the sink to wash his face.

"Jimin... " the knocks were getting loud. Jungkook was growing worried and impatient and he was about to knock another time when Jimin opened the door. The dancer was smiling brightly at him but Jungkook could see his red eyes.

"I'm so hungry, Kookie," Jimin said clinging to the younger. Jungkook eyes the room carefully. Jimin didn't know that the pregnancy stick he thought he threw into the dustbin fell on the floor and it didn't escape the racer's hawk eyes.

"I'll just use the restroom," Jungkook said while they were drinking coffee and Jimin nodded dumbly. Jungkook went into the room and saw the pregnancy stick with double red lines. His face went pale and he was already drenched in sweat. The worst nightmare was happening now. It was not because he was young or his unwillingness to take responsibility, it was the curse that frightened him. He grew breathless as he splashed cold water onto his face.

"Damn it" he cursed clutching his head.

"Well played, destiny" he clenched his fist in anger. The boy understood the ways of the universe. It won't let them be at peace. Never ever. But all these thoughts were pushed to a corner when he thought about Jimin.

"Is hyung afraid that I would leave him?" he asked himself sitting on the bathroom floor. He leaned his head on the wall, his heart beating so fast in fear.

"I can't lose you, Hyung" he mumbled tears swelling up. His knuckles turned red at how tight he was clenching his fist. He was sure that his nails caused some bruises on his palm.

His blood ran cold thinking about how Jimin would feel now.

"How can I tell you to abort our baby, Hyung?" he mumbled now tears falling down his sharp jaws.

"The baby we made with love...." they may be too young to start a family but they didn't want to kill innocent life. They didn't know that it was neither their fault. They didn't know that a spirit made the pills ineffective. They blamed themselves.

With wobbly legs, Jungkook stood up and washed his face, and dried it with a towel. He reached the living room where Jimin was doing something on his phone. The smaller one didn't notice Jungkook's red eyes as he himself was red-eyed. Jungkook sat at the table and looked at Jimin who was trying so hard not to cry. The younger could see it.

'I'm sorry. I'm not being able to comfort you now' Jungkook said in his mind hoping Jimin would hear that. The older stood up and walked to the kitchen to place his empty cup in the sink. Jungkook looked at Jimin's phone and took it into his hand, unlocking it. He was sure Jimin talked with someone when he was in the restroom. He called the last unknown number and placed it near his ear.

"Hello, Seoul hospitals" tears fell down as soon as heard those words. He hung up the call feeling breathless. Jimin was going to abort. He felt very useless when he heard muffled cries in the kitchen but he can't go comfort his lover who was trying hard trying not to make any noise. He felt like shit when he could not ask Jimin to stop the abortion.

"This is the only way to protect you" he mumbled leaning on the table while tears rolled down his cheeks wetting the table.