Conversations I'll never have

Classical Music

10-4-22

Many people have pushed me. They made me feel like I had to be committed, so I never stopped. I've been trapped. The walls would come in closer when people would tell me that I'm good at what I do; I'm gifted. Praise and encouragement is disgusting. Yes I am good at it, but it is not my passion. Yes it's fun, but it's no longer worth it when it consumes the majority of my time. Time runs fast, so why spend it on something I find fault in. It doesn't make sense in my brain when there are rules and regulations on something that's irregular. It's supposed to be irregular; it's an art form. It's supposed to be creative. It was never supposed to turn into this. Everyone's so dramatic. I quit.