Conversations I'll never have

I'll never crash

7-31-24

We're lounging in her bed, talking about life, like we always do.

"I don't think we've ever gotten in an argument," she said, as if it's a good thing.

I took a few seconds to gather my thoughts and gave her what I thought would be the best response.

"It takes a lot to get me mad. So if someone makes me mad, that means they're stupid. You never aggravate me." And what I told her was very true, but I held back.

What if lack of fighting in a friendship is a bad thing? Maybe the main reason we have never argued is because I repress my feelings. I hide my thoughts. I ignore my religion with her.

Yeah, I'm always cool to hang with. I'm chill and unproblematic. However, it's a facade at its finest. If she ever gained the ability to mind read, I'm done for. She'd be instantly gone.

Who is worse? Is it me because I hide what I think? Or is it her because of how fast she would leave me for it?

I guess I'll keep doing this bad thing because the lie hasn't hurt anyone yet. I'ma ride this wave for as long as possible.