Walking Alone (1D Fan Fiction AU)

Text Message

Zayn’s POV

“No Shania, I get it, you’re not interested.” I slipped my hand away from hers embarrassed that I just told her I liked her. How could I have been so stupid, I should have known, I mean she never showed any interest in me before. I grabbed my things from the bench and turned to look at the beautiful girl looking back at me. I could feel my eyes watering and my lip quivering, I had to leave; Shania couldn’t see me cry, not here, not now. I turned and left without even the others knowing.  I tear started falling from my face as I walked down the halls of the building.

First Rylie saw me with—no—I can’t think about that right now and now I can’t even get Shania. She is such a nice girl with beautiful coal eyes. And the way that her hair falls around her shoulders just makes you smile because she hates short hair and never wants to chop it off. Just thinking about her makes me smile like an idiot.

I was too caught up in thinking about her I hadn’t realized that I was already at the door to exit the building. I took a deep breath and open the large metal doors thinking one last time if I should just go back and confront Shania—no, I couldn’t go back. I push on the doors and a blast of warm air hit my body, I took five steps outside and wished I was back in the air conditioned building.

I walk through the parking lot full of cars and found my blue car. I throw my gym bag in the passenger seat and walked around to the driver’s side, got in and started the car. I quickly turned on the AC because it was really warm and I had just been sweating from play ball with the guys. I took my phone out of my pocket to see if I had any missed calls or messages, but nothing.

I cranked the lever in reverse and back the car out of the lot then drove away. I couldn’t sit in silence right now so I clicked on the radio and just my luck, a sad song come on.

Would you dance, if I asked you to dance?

Shania would probably dance with me but probably because she would think that I was kidding.

Would you run, and never look back?

She would never run with me.

Would you cry, if you saw me crying?

She has never seen me cry so I have no idea

And would you save my soul, tonight?

I would save her soul more than she would save mine.

Would you tremble, if I touched your lips?

Of course she would.

Would you laugh? Oh please tell me this?

She laughed when I asked her if she saw something she liked.

Now would you die, for the one you love?

Probably, but not for me.

Hold me in your arms, tonight.

I can be your hero, baby

I would do anything just to have you here, right now.

I can kiss away the pain

I was so tempted to kiss you when you fell to the ground and wouldn’t wake up.

I will stand by you forever

You can take my breath away

And you just broke my heart today.

I shut the radio off and a tear fell from my eye, down my cheek and dropped on to my pants.

“Keep it together Zayn, it’s just a girl—but she is a lovely girl—to lovely for me—no, I can get any girl that I want—except for Shania.” I have to stop trying to give myself pep talks; they never seem to go right. I wiped my face and tried to regain my composer when my phone buzzed. I looked over into the passenger seat and I saw that the text was from—wait Shania? I grabbed my iPhone and unlocked it, quickly trying to view the message, keeping in mind that I am driving.

What does she have to say? Will she break my heart even more?

Shania:

Zayn, I’m sorry that I didn’t answer you right away when you said that you liked me as more than a friend, I just, didn’t know how to respond. I have never had a boyfriend before so it was such a sudden shock.

“BEEEEEP!”

“SHIT!” I swerved out of the other lane. I knew I shouldn’t have read the text now. I pulled over to the side of the road because this was a message that could not wait and I looked back at the message.

I just, don’t know how to put this and it’s very hard for me to say. Just meet me at the boardwalk tonight at nine; it will be easier for me to say.

-Shania

What did she want to tell me? I don’t think I can wait until nine to find out, I mean it’s only five o’clock right now. I locked and threw my phone into the passenger seat and started to drive home. What could she not want to tell me over a text? It’s most likely that she doesn’t like me and wanted to speak to me face to face because Shania is a girl to know what you should and shouldn’t say over a text.

I got off my exit and drove down the long twisty road to my house. The leaves on the trees were a beautiful autumn green and the grass looked freshly cut and I felt the need to roll down my window. The wind felt refreshing on my face and I could smell the freshly cut grass. It made me forget about Shania for a while which is what I needed, no more chances of getting into a car crash because I am thinking about a girl.

I pulled into my drive way of my house; it was an average middle class house. A nice tan color, next to a bunch of other houses in the neighborhood. I picked up my gym bag and slung it around my shoulder while picking up my phone and dropping it in my back pocket. I trudged up the steps to the front door and grabbed the door handle but it would budge. Huh, that’s funny, I thought someone would be home.

“Shit.” I had forgotten my house keep on the counter in the kitchen, forgetting to put it back on my key ring with my car keys. I looked around for a spare key and I found one under the welcome mat. Thank god.

“Hello?!” I yelled but there was no answer. I walked over into the kitchen and saw that my mom left me a note and it read,

Zayn, me and the girls went out to lunch and then we are heading to the mall. We should be back around six, if not then feel free to heat up some left over pizza in the fridge.

-Love Mom <3

I smiled and headed up stair to my room and took a shower, I reeked. I turned the shower on hot and took off my clothes. It felt good to take a nice hot shower; it helped me relax and soothed my soar arms from throwing the basketball. I thought back to the song that played in the car ride home and started to sing.

Would you swear that you’ll always be mine?

Or would you lie? Would you run and hide?

Am I too deep? Have I lost my mind?

I don’t care you’re here, tonight.

I can be your hero, baby

I can kiss away the pain

I will stand by you forever

You can take my breath away

I finished my shower and grabbed a towel to wrap myself in. I felt so refresh and I walked into my room to look decent enough just to let Shania look at what she will be missing out on one last time.