Gigolo (A Taekook Ff)

Chapter twenty four

Shame is a soul eating emotion.

-Carl Gustav Jung

Taehyung P.O.V

I have fucked many men in my life. I still fuck random strangers for money, sounds disgusting, but it is what it is. You can tell a lot about someone you're about to sleep with when you have this much experience.

I have fucked men who wear wedding rings and have their spouses photos as their phone's wallpapers. I have fucked women who told their husbands that they love them right before they got on their knees in front of me, sucking my dick like they have been starving for ages.

Jeon Jungkook was special to me, but he was no exception. I could tell that he was trying his best to forget the love he had for his wife. You might say that he was using me as a distraction but I think it's not true. His eyes gave away his feelings for me, the feelings that he desperately tried to hide from me  simply because he thought it was impossible for me to reciprocate his feelings.

"Do you always space out after ejaculating?", Jungkook asked, chuckling against my nape.

" What are you? 12? Who tf even uses this word now? E-j-a-c-u-l-a-t-i-o-n eww. I swear to god you sometimes make me believe that you're a 2 year old kid living in an adult muscle-pig-ish body.".

"Okay and what the hell is muscle-pig-ish Mr.I space out after-sex?".

"I just made it up. What about it? Also, get off me you're heavy ass fuck.", I said before trying to push him off myself.

"Come on Taetae. You're a bigboy. I had your dick inside of me a few minutes ago remember?", he said before living small kisses on my chest.

" Oh for fuck's sake give me a break will you? I can't come twice. I mean I can but at least give me some time to recover? I know my dick is irresistible but try to control yourself for a couple of minutes, please.", I said.

"You're no fun Tae. Speaking of dicks... Can I top you in the next round? I mean it's not like I dont enjoy having you inside of me but I want to try something different this time.", he said, staring at me with those doe, irresistible eyes. How could I say no to those starry eyes?

" Yeah, sure. Why not? It's not like I have never done this before. But are you one hundred percent sure about it? Are you mentally prepared for it. If not then you dont need to force yourself to do this you know. Take your time.".

"I think I am ready. We'll find out whether I am ready or not in a few minutes anyway. ", he said before flashing his bunny-smile at me and suddenly felt extremely guilty. Guilt made my stomach churn and on all a sudden I couldn’t hear anything. My ears started ringing and I started sweating, even tho it was minus two degrees outside.

" Tae are you okay?  What is happening? Hey, calm down baby. Look at me, just me. Take deep breaths Tae come on. Don't panic love I'm here. Right here." he whispered in my ear while trying to calm me down. And that's when I knew I had to come clean to him. Even though I knew it was going to shatter his heart into pieces.

"Kook ah I have to tell you something. But please promise me you’ll try to stay calm after hearing it. Because I really don't want to lose you. I really dont. I'm sorry baby. I know you dont deserve this.",  I said before planting soft kisses all over his faces. I held onto his hands like my life depends on it.

" Tae what's wrong? You're scaring me? Can't it wait? You dont have to talk about it if you're not ready. I trust you Tae." and his words made me burst into tears.

" Kook, I am not as good as you think I am. I dont know how to say this but if I dont tell you now then I know I'll never say this to you again. All this time, you wife has been cheating on you with me.".

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That's it for today. The cat is finally out of the bag. Let me know what you think about this chapter.

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Until next time ~