Gigolo (A Taekook Ff)

Chapter twenty six

"You can start anew at any given moment. Life is just the passage of time and it's up to you to pass it as you please."
-Charlotte Eriksson

Jeongguk P.O.V

People say your past doesn't define you but I think the lessons you learn from the past do. You're supposed to learn from your past mistakes but if you don't then don't call them mistakes. Mistakes aren't deliberate. Mistakes can't be repeated multiple times. But sometimes, your own feelings become a strong hurdle for you to overcome. Those feelings lead you to make mistakes, mistakes you promised yourself to never repeat again. Should you blame your heart for it? Maybe not because the brain can be at fault too. If the brain fails to recognise the red flags, you're bound to make bad decisions. And bad decisions lead you to mistakes.

"Your head is going to burst if you keep overthinking like this Jeongguk-ssi.", Nina said, interrupting my train of thoughts. I didn't know why I decided to meet her, I hadn't stepped outside of my room since that fateful day and I probably looked like a hobo.

"I'm not here to ruin your mood but I need to tell you something. I was with Taehyung the other day. Now, please don't be mad at him. It's what he does for a living. I'm here to tell you that you should give him a chance to explain himself.", she said in a firm voice. I knew she wasn't joking around and was beind dead serious. But what did she know about broken hearts? And I didn't hesitate to voice my thoughts.

" What do you know about broken hearts? You bath in your husband's money, squander your monthly allowances on cheap whores for temporary pleasure. ",I spat venomously before realizing that I was being nothing but an asshole to this woman who had done nothing wrong. I knew I shouldn't be taking my anger out on everyone I meet, but heartbreak makes you unable to think rationally. I learned it the hard way.

"The only man I have ever allowed to touch me besides my husband is Taehyung. And unlike you I don't consider or treat him like a cheap whore. What was thinking before coming here? You all are the same and I'm done with all of you. Taehyung definitely deserves someone better than both you and me. I was here to tell you that Taehyung didn't have any choice other than bedding your wife cause she offered a hefty amount of money and he really needed that money. Unlike us he doesn't have it easy but what would you know about struggling or being broke? ",She said before walking away.

I hung my head in same. I was better than that and I knew it. I shouldn't have let my emotions get the best of me. I had never considered Tae as a cheap whore. If I did, I'd not give him my heart. I felt suffocated and needed to talk to someone. This made me realise that I truly had nobody to share my sorrow with. I felt miserable.

I came back home and went straight to my room. I sat on the floor, thinking about my life. I took my phone out of my pocket and called Hobi but his phone was switched off. I plopped down on the bed and closed my eyes. Maybe I should stop acting like a coward and try to make everything better. I owed Taehyung a chance to explain himself and I was going to do just that. But first I needed to confront my dear wife..
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A/N: It has been a while. I'm sorry if my writing sucks. If you're still reading this story, please tell me why you have decided to stay. I really want to know. I dont think my book is worthy enough to be read by you guys..

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Until next time ~