Gigolo (A Taekook Ff)

chapter eight

"There are two kinds of guilt: the kind that drowns you until you're useless, and the kind that fires your soul to purpose."

(Sabaa Tahir, An Ember in the Ashes)

Soyeon P.O.V

I watched the sunset at the horizon, spreading its largest into the beautifully empty space named sky. It felt like the sky was on fire. Rich hues of red blended with orange.

I wanted positive energy to flow through me, I wanted each cell of my body to be wide awake and alive with joy.

Suddenly I felt two large arms wrapping around my waist. Hoseok hugged me from behind and kissed my hair softly.

"What got your pretty little head thinking love?", he mumbled against my head.

"Nothing much.", I said before turning around and wrapping my hands around his nape.

Hoseok was doing his best to make me fall in love with him. But for some unknown reason the butterflies in my stomach didn't react to his loving gestures. They remained inactive. No matter how many times he showered my face with loving kisses , no matter how many times he loved me I just couldn't bring myself to return his feelings. Something was stopping me from falling in love with him.

I knew what was stopping me from returning his feelings but I didn't want to admit it. It was my decision to leave him and our son. I was a coward and definitely wasn't ready to become a mother.

So I left him like the selfish bitch I was.

I turned around and wrapping my arms around his nape. He placed a soft kiss on my lips and I melted in his arms.

Soon I found myself lying underneath him on our bed. My hands were wrapped around his nape as he kept pounding into me. But I couldn't help but thinking about the times when Taehyung used to make love to me. I knew it wasn't the right thing to do and Hoseok didn't deserve this but I just couldn't help it.

He came inside the condom and pulled out. For the first time in my life I felt guilty for my actions. Tears started to well up in my eyes but I didn't let them fall. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath to calm myself down. After an eternity I slowly opened my eyes and stared down at the male who was lying peacefully on my stomach. He looked so angelic while sleeping that I couldn't help but place a chaste kiss on his forehead. I carefully lift his head off my stomach and placed it on the pillow. I covered his naked body with a duvet and hurriedly put my clothes on.

I picked up my phone from the nightstand and went to the balcony. Taking a deep breath I decided to send him a text.

'Taehyung,,meet me at the park tonight. Don't forget to bring our son with you. I wanna hold him in my arms."

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