Gigolo (A Taekook Ff)

chapter one

"That if desperate times call for desperate measures, then I'm free to act as desperately as I wish".
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Suzanne Collins (The hunger games: Catching fire)

Taehyung p.o.v
There's a reason why meth was one of my favourite drugs. It dried my eyes, brought colour to my sombre sky , tamed my hunger and most importantly , it numbed my skin.

I couldn't afford to buy meth as it was costly. I stole money almost everyday for the next fix, risked my life to get what my body yearned for.

But everything changed when my former girlfriend announced she was pregnant with my child. Both of us were broke college students and definitely not ready to have a child of our own. She flatly refused to take the responsibility of our child as she thought a child will suck the youth out of her. She wanted to explore the world freely . Having a child would stop her from living her dream life. But I wasn't ready to become a parent either because I was practically living from hand to mouth but she didn't even try to understand my situation. I didn't want my child to suffer for our mistake. That's how I ended up becoming a single father.

My life took a dramatic u turn when my son came into my life. He weighed only four pounds when he was born. He looked so tiny, so fragile yet his eyes held a galaxy of gleaming stars. I fell in love with as soon as I laid my eyes on his beautiful face. He was wrapped up with a pink towel which made him look so beautiful that I couldn't take my eyes off him.

When I held him in my arms for the very first time, I bursted into tears. I promised to shower him with my love and keep him safe right then, right there. But my happiness was short-lived because reality never failed to remind me how harsh it is.

My parents wanted to put him up for adoption but I vehemently refused to do so. I couldn't give my son away , he was my responsibility. He was the only drop of water in my deserted life. I wouldn't be able to survive without him.

My son , Benjamin, is now a one year old healthy baby boy. I was desperate to find a job in order to feed him and provide him with a shelter. I had no choice but to become to become a male escort in order to keep both of us alive.

"Penny for your thoughts mr.Kim.", someone said, snapping me out of my thoughts. I looked up only to find Jeon Jungkook staring right inti my soul. Out of all the people on earth I just had to run into him , no?

"Ah it's nothing mr.Jeon. Where are you off to?"

"Heading towards my home. I miss spending time with my wife. But it seems like the feeling is not mutual.", Jungkook sighed . I couldn't look him in the eyes as I was ashamed of myself for fucking his wife behind his back for money.

"Why do you act awkward when you're around me?".

Maybe because I am fucking your wife behind your back- I wanted to say but I didn't wanna loose my job so I kept my mouth shut.

"Maybe because you're good looking.", I said calmly.

"It was nice meeting you mr.Kim. See you around I guess ", he said before walking away. No it wasn't nice and I definitely didn't want to run into him.

The things I do for you Benji.

A/N: listen to the song mentioned above while reading this chapter and please ignore the mistakes.