Sometimes it snows in April

A broken home

Theo pov

I remember it so clearly. It was a Tuesday night, I was reading a book in one of my rooms. I heard screaming and yelling from the living room. I tried to ignore it, it happened so often it wasn't something weird anymore. My father would yell at my mom and hit her. He would also yell at me and Basil. Basil always tried to keep me safe. Once I slept in our treehouse because he said dad was in a bad mood. The next day he wasn't allowed to go to school because he had a black eye. We don't talk about it. That's the rule in this house, that's everlasting the curse in this house, silence. It always has been. I once had a broken hand but I didn't go to the doctors untill my teacher sent me. The curse was silence. Not even the violence. I put on headphones to ignore the noise when Basil storms into my room and locks the door. "Grab a coat." He says. I grab a coat. "Go to Alastair! My bike is standing next to the stables." I simply nod and pick up a coat. This wasn't something surprising anymore. I almost lives with the Burtons. I open the window and step outside when he hugs me. "I really love you brother. Don't come back untill midnight." I nod. I grab his bike and off I go. The breeze waves through the grass and my cheeks turn rosy because of the wind. 

The whole day I cant wrap my mind around the sudden declaration of love from basil. He never days he loves me, I feel he loves me we don't need words, we never did. He could look at me and I'd understand I needed to go to sleep. He could look at me and I knew he wanted to go horseback riding. We never needed words. When it's been midnight I sneak out of alastair's house. When I arrive home I'm dirty because of the rain. I feel weird so I decide to take a shower. I go to the bathroom I share with basil. Our bathroom is at the top of the house so it has thick wooden beams. I open the door and my breathing stops.

I wake up screaming.

April pov

I try to calm him down but he's absolutely frantic. Bartholomew helped me get him home and explained what to do when he has seizures. But theo panicking right now. I decide to hug him so tight he can't panick. I pet his soft hair. "I'm here it's okay. Everything is fine we'll work this out Theo." He is drying on my shoulder and he has crumpled up into a little ball. The confident Theo I know is nowhere to be seen. He's fragile like a little kid. He whispers "They're all gone" "you still have your mom" I say reassuringly. He looks at me with tears in his eyes and I immediately know what that means. He begins to cry. But not his normal graceful crying. He cries like his heart is in pieces and will never be mend again. I hug him as tightly as I can and sort of cradle him back and forth. "Shhh, you'll get through this." "I couldn't even say goodbye" I nod "it's all gonna be okay I promise" he shakes his head. "That's what everyone said after basil" he can't finish his sentence. "Let's take a short walk so we can talk this through and get you to calm down." 

We're sitting on an old wall in the middle of a field while the sun is slowly disappearing on the horizon. We have a bottle of jack Daniels to soften the pain. Theo laughs bitterly. "How the fuck can incare so much about these fucking assholes?" I look at him "what do you mean by that." "My father beat my mom and me and my brother, you know the normal stuff" he say while taking a sip. I stare at him. "Everytime I slept in your house it was simply because of that. But yeah that's marriage for starters. That's what they call love." I look confused at him. "have you ever had a working relationship?" He shakes his head. "My boyfriend was a cheater and a snake. He was a beater and a fake." He chuckles cynically. "Boyfriend?" I ask confused. He nods. "His name was Lachlan.....he lives back in london and constantly keeps begging to get me back. And the worst thing Is, I'm so fucking lonely I'm considering it." "You have me Theodore. And you will always have me." He looks at me. "But everybody o love dies. I don't want you to die. Maybe I'm cursed" he jokes but the sadness is seeping through the cracks "you're stupid Theo. I would never ever leave you without putting up a fight" "but I left you. Aren't you mad?" "No Theo love or friendship doesn't work like that, did you stop loving basil when he died?" "No I didn't" "I won't stop loving you when you leave either" he begins to cry. I kiss him on the forehead and hug him. His muscular body tries to fit into my feminine arms but they are a little small. I don't get why he never told me I wish he told me. 

Theo pov

That night I still feel miserable. I want to die. I look at the rope hanging from the beams. I hesitate. unsure if I want to do this. I'm unsure about a lot of things in life. I climb on a chair and look at the rope. I sigh and bring the rope to my neck. I wanna step of the chair but something tells me not to. I'm standing there for more than an hour. I decide that life maybe has something to give me