Turning Page: New Journey Begins (Sumodjiyaras)(Agnimamehil)

part 1: Me and Mirror

This FF starts just after episode 181, 

After a long fight Between susheema, susheela goes into her room in anger and locks the door and comes in front of the mirror.

Susheela's Pov:-

(Susheela was Looking into mirror and talking to herself )

Na u aaine me ke dekh rahi hai susheela? Ke jarurat thi? Ke jarurat thi tujhe  Dulhan banke yo sab sajne savarne ki?

Pata tha na tanne ki bhagwan ne teri zindagi ke ander pyar naam ka instrument to lagaya hi na hain!

Yo shadi, barat, dulhan banna to tere nasib me hi na hai

Toh q? Q itna uchal rahi thi tu?

( Removes  her nath and mathapatti and throws it on floor, she sits on bed, tears ware rolling down from her eyes and she started crying bit loudly) 

Tu janti thi na susheela , janti thi na, Tera to har sapna pura Hote hote adhura rehejata hain to aakhir it tune itna bada sapna dekha hi q?

Jab actress Banne ka sapna dekha bus kuch hi der me wo pura honewala tha lekin nahi tab bhi tuzhe ulte pav ghar lautna pada aur aaj bhi apne hi mandap se wapas ulte pav lautna pada

Mere aur pramod ke bich sab kuch aacha chal raha tha, baat aage 

badhnehi wali thi ki Lily bich me aagayi, phir bhi ... Phir bhi apne pyar pe pura bharosa karke  us situation se ladhai ki 

wo to thi bhi parai jisse ladha ja sakta tha

Lekin ... Lekin ab Mini aunty se kese ladhai karungi jinko mene apna idol mana tha, jinke jesa me banna chahti thi ,jinki me sabse jyada respect karti thi 

Jiske sath tujhe shadi karni thi wo khud to bada docter hain aur to shadi ke jaldbazi me Bina apna collage complete kiye, Bina degree liye hi jiske liye mandap me utar gayi! Wo hi Mandap chod kar chala gaya!

Khair degree bhi konsa apne man se chuni thi par phir bhi atleast  graduate to hoti!

Bada show off karti thi na tu tere aur Garima ke acchi sisters Bane rehne ka,tum do beheno ke pyar ka!,bada naaz tha na tanne is riste par, hum dono beheno ke unity par, likin aaj ke kiya tune ? Usi behen ko thappad mara, zagda kiya aur behen hone ka haqq bhi chin liya !

Bada khus hogaye hone sab hathibazar Wale log yo najara dekh ke

Aur Parmod...

Mera Chota Haddi..

Ye tune ke kiya mere sath ? 

Ke hua tumhe? Na apne pyar pe jara bhi Bharosa na raha, ke tumne bhi muzhe bailbuddhi samajh liya! Jo bina soche samjhe kisi par bhi kuch bhi ilzam lagaungi?

Koi galat faimy na hui hain manne, q sach ko andekha kar rahe ho tum, Jese hi muze maafi ki baat pata chali muzhe turant click hua ki usdin papa phone lene nahi maafi mangne jhuke the, hum dono ne papa ko is tarah dekha tha upni aakho se phir bhi uswakt samajh na paye, par me to ib samajh gayi hu par tum kab samjhoge, 

Me to apne papa ko acche se janti hu ki bina kisi majburi ke wo kisi ke aage nahi zhunkte,aur waha bus Mini aunty hi thi jo unhe majbur kar sakti thi ...

Lekin tum shayad apni hi maa ko nahi jante pramod! Me apne papa ka jhuth pakad sakti hu par ke tum aapni maa ka jhuth nahi pakad sakte? Doctor hote hue bhi asli aur nakli chakkar aane me fark nahi jante? 

Mini aunty ko hamari Sadi ke liye koi concern tha hi nahi, agar hota to wo usi wakt hame sach bata deti jab hum niche aaye the,'wo to phone utha rahe hain' ye bahana unho ne hi banaya tha, tab nahi to baad me separately muzhse baat karti, jo bhi hua hain wo mujhe akeleme  batati, aaj me to unhe upar chalne ke liye insist bhi kar rahi thi akele me baat karne, par nahi, unhe to sabke samne hamari insult karni thi, janmuch ke yo baat Mane ese wakt par batai taki yo rishta tut jaye!

Q ki na to tum apni maa ka apmaan aur me apne papa ka apman sehe nahi payenge, wo chahti hi nahi thi ki hamari shadi ho

Chalo thik hain Maan liye ke me ye tumse kuch jyada hi expect kar rahi hu ki tum meri taraha is baat ka andaja laga paoge par Garima meri apni sagi behen

Sab kuch apne aakho ke samne hote hue dekh kar bhi, sab kuch jante hue bhi muzhe kuch bata nahi saki tu tumse kya hi expect Karu! 

Ab hamare pyar ka kya chota haddi? Kash hum itna aage kabhi badhte hi nahi !

Ab to shayad tum muzhse nafrat karne lag gaye hoge!

(She Wipes her teras remove her bangles and jewelry, washes her face and changes clothes and ware her regular outfit blue top and green dhoti,she came out and again started seeing mirror)

Kehete hain ki aaina sach bolta hain! Lekin mujhse realated, meri sahdi se realated, mere haq ka sach janne ke liye mjhe itna q tadapana pad raha hain?

Ke hua yo meri life ke sath?

Na to me actor ban payi, na Dulhan ban payi, na abhi tak acche se Barber ban payi hu abhi tak logo ne hame accept Kiya hi na hain aur ke pata hamari Sadi tutne ka sara blame shop par dalkar papa phir se wo hamse Chin le? kam se kam graduate hoti to wo bhi na ho paya muzhse

Aakhir kab tak meri zindagi is ek hi panne par atki rahengi?

 meri life ka yo page turn hoga bhi ya nahi?

Ya zindagi bhar , har jaga is tarah Aduri hi rahungi 

Chalo, apni shadi to to na hopai par atleast apni behen ki to shadi dekh pati wo bhi na dekh payi, ab to kitni der hogayi hain, shayad bidai bhi hogayi hogi!

Dekhu to sahi

She opens the door to get the glimpse of Garima's wedding and ...

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