Iv made a lot of mistakes in my life, more then I can count there's the mistakes that I can get over like it never happened and then there's the ones that keep me awake at night, the ones that keep me awake are the ones that are slowly killing me. The ones that make me feel like that's how I'll be remembered when I die, the ones that I know I hurt people and made them think I was a horrible person.
Most of the time I make these mistakes when I'm drunk and have no idea what I'm doing but I know that it's an over heard sentence to say "I was so drunk I didn't mean to do it" because even tho I was drunk and can't remember I should still own up to my mistakes. But I can't it hurts me to much to say iv done it I want to forget every mistake every choice iv made and I want the people I annoyed and hurt to forgive me like it never happened.
But I know they don't, some do and I love them for that but some hold it against me. Sometimes they will bring it up in a game but it still hurts but I have to pretend like I find it funny.
People don't know that all the shit I do that's embarrassing to me when I'm drunk hurts me when I'm sober.
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Welcome to the hell I call my brain.
No FicciónI have these thoughts in my head and I hope I find people that have the same. Enjoy or ignore idc .
