Sorry not sorry || snape x reader

Chapter 24

'but when realisation hit I pulled away.'

"Easy professor, as much as I would like to get kissed by you, you're drunk, and we dont want anyone to regret anything in the morning, now do we?" I felt something like a knot in my throat, I knew that he wouldnt kiss me if he wasnt in this state.

He sat back in his chair, crossing his arms, huffing. "I just want to be loved."

"You are loved, dont worry about it." I said patting his back, It was akward, really akward, like what am I supposed to do now? leave? "Professor, I think I need to go and find y/f/n." I took a step away but Severus grabbed my wrist, pulling me back, almost falling.

"Don't leave.. please" As much as I despise this guy, seeing him in this state, made me sad, I wonder what made him build these 'walls' around him. I couldnt leave, he said please.

"Alright then.. Do you want tea?" I asked him, already looking around for a kettle. But I couldnt seem to find any.

"I got none here, it is in my office." Could this get any worse? I should be going to look around for y/f/n, of maybe get ready for the party, but instead I am here with my bloody professor. I mean, I dont mind it that much, but it is wrong.

"So..perhaps water is an alright idea?" I asked, not wanting to leave the classroom with a drunk professor.

"No,no, let's just go to my office, it is only 2 doors away from here." I sighed, not knowing what to do now, do I leave and come back with the tea? Do I take Snape with me?

"Err.. Are we going together?" I held my hand to the potion master so he can get up without.. You know, falling?

"Yes, yes right." He got up, ignoring my attempt in helping him, and somehow he was able to walk. This man is strange as fuck, he's struggling to form a sentence but is able to walk relatively normal.

As we reached his office, he sat on a couch that was placed somewhere in the back of the office, right next to a shelf full of different books, all of them looking at least 5 years old, this room smelled like..coffee, a lot of coffee, parachment, probably from all the tests that he gives to children, there was also a vague smell of ink, and I could also identify a tint of wood, probably pine wood, and of course different spices for potions, but you can smell that everywhere in the dungeons because of all the idiots that blow up their cauldrowns.

I found the kettle and poured water in it, that with a small movement of my wand started boiling, the kettle was only for the effect, I could just pour the water in the cups and boil it there. "How much sugar do you like in ur tea?" I asked, while looking around for the sugar, I wasnt sure it I can accio it, cuz what if I accio only the sugar without the container it is in?

"Plain, I dont drink it with sugar." He answerd, making himself comfortable on the couch. What a weirdo.. I put at least 3 cubes of sugar in my tea.

"Here you go" I handed him the small cup of tea, while with my other hand, placing my cup on the small table thats in the right side of the couch. "Careful it is very-" I couldnt finish because Snape already took a big gulp of the tea, and he didnt even reacted. "-hot." not hotter than you. I thought, trying to hold my laugh.

Some time later I was sat on the floor, not wanting to take out too much space, still sipping from my first cup of tea, while professor was already at his third. An akward silence filled the room after I told him that I did not read whatever book he just mentioned.

"My favorite color is black.. You know, it looks quite nice." He said out of blue.

"Really? I couldnt never guess, I always thought pink was your favorite." I rolled my eyes, placing my now empty cup on the table.

"Let me guess.. Yours is yellow?" I arched one of my eyebrows. Why would he think I like yellow? To be honest, I do not like yellow that much, it is just.. Too yellowish for my liking.

"Actually no, my favorite color would be dark green, or dark purple, or cherry red, or uhh blue. I cant choose" I said, I looked around the room to find an item that is at least remotely close to one of my favorite colors. I found a book that was a dark green and pointed to it. "something like that color" I said.

"That's indeed a great color.. And also a great book." He stated while I was just staring at him, I am not into old books to be honest.

"You know professor, You re really talkative when you're drunk."

"Dont get used to it." He said while rolling his eyes.

"So,sir.. Not that I made you tea and also that I am in your office keeping you company while you're drunk.. Perhaps I can call you by your first name?" I asked trying to make puppy eyes.

"No, absolutely not." I scoffed at his response.

"At least I tried." I said while looking at the clock, 5:32pm. The party starts in half an hour and also I still need to find y/f/n, hopefully alive and with clothes on.

"Uh professor- I think I need to go and find y/f/n. I suggest you get some sleep." I stood up and brushed the dust off my clothes as I made my way to the door, we said our 'goodbyes' and I left.

Edit-october 24 2022

Hello loves, I am having a writers block at the moment and I cant find anything to write in the next chapter, I am sorry but it might take a little longer until I will post it (I have like 200 words written atm)