The One I Need.

Him.

"I will never leave you, Ellie. I promise you that." He kisses me. Hard and deep. I am sitting on his lap and can feel him being excited. His hand is running down my back. It makes me feel like the good old days. My safe space. Slowly his hand slides down my body, finding his way down to me. "I want you to look at me while I please you." I do as he says. My hands are in his curly hair gently pulling on it. His voice is sexy and mature. And the eyes Don't even get me started on those deep and dark eyes. Like Theo...

Theo. I wake up and immediately open my eyes. Did I really just dream that? And with THEO? How does he already have this impact on me? Damn, this is really going a little too fast. But fuck it was hot. I close my eyes again, and the memories from my dream start coming back to me, turning me even more on. This can't be right. I stop. Fuck. I have go get rid of this feeling. Slowly I stroke my hand over my breasts, further down over my stomach, until I get to my panty. I push it aside while I find my soft spot that never fails me. Fuck. Again the same images show up in my head, but this time I don't push them away. I embrace them. It gets more and more steamy until I feel my climax building up. I feels so damn good. I apply a little more pressure as I climax to the image of him thrusting into me. Theo. Oh my God, I never did this with Adam. I mean, at least not in this intense way. I think Theo is toxic for me. My phone vibrates. If it is him, I swear to God, I am cursed. But it is Emmelie.

Em: "Remember, you owe me 50 bucks."

Does she really always have to start with a text like that?

E: "Of course, right away."

Em: "Girl, it was a joke. That is not important. How was it???"

Before I can even answer, another text ticks in.

Em: "Nvm, I am coming over. Be there in ten."

I hear the doorbell ringing. My Mom isn't home, luckily. "Since when i the back door locked?" "My mom is scared because of all the break ins lately." "Ah.. Are you making coffee or am I." "I will do it."

Over coffee I tell here everything from running into him, to the café, to the walk, to the busdrive, to when we got here. Just not the kiss. Not yet. I need to work that out myself first. I still don't know what that meant. And then also that dream. Oof, I can't tell Emmelie about that, she would DIE. "Girl, you are falling for him." "Pffff, I am not. That is not even possible." "Of course it is! Why wouldn't it be?" "Because Adam and I just broke up. And Theo and I don't really have the best history. I find it very embarrassing. How could I fall for him with that in my memory?" "Ellie, it is not the memories, it is the feeling." "If you say so..." "But you didn't tell me about when he actually left. What did he say?" "Just the basic stuff. And then I maybe almost kissed him" Fuck, it slipped. "YOU WHAT?! ALMOST?" "Yeah, I know, it is bad." "Girl you are soo falling for him. No way around it anymore. But you didn't or what?" "No, I pulled out of it. I was scared it was going to be awkward after. And it was also very much too early." "Well, has he texted you yet?" She is onto something. Because he hasn't. And he said he would. "No..." "Ohhhhh. Well, he will. Soon. I believe that. Don't worry Ellie." "I really hope you are right you know." "I always am." We laugh. "You have to leave soon though, because I have a therapy appointment today." "Sure thing. Ell, I am really proud of you, you know that?" I blush and hug Emmelie. "Talk to you later?" "Of course girl! Always. And he will text you. I mean it." "Okay".

I close the door after Emm and go back to my room to get ready for the day. My dream is still in the air of my bedroom, but this time i brush it off me. I don't need distractions. Maybe I do, but good ones so I don't start overthinking again. I pick out a good outfit to feel comfortable in, but also look a little fierce in. Make up is light, and my thick dark blonde hair in a messy bun. I crab my purse and keys and get going on my way to the shabby therapist.