Dysphoria (Mileven AU)

Two

Tw: Self harm and body dysmorphia

Mike's pov:

I woke up from the light coming from my window. I should've shut the curtains. I walk in the bathroom connected to my room and I get in the shower. Once I get out of the shower I brush my teeth. I walk back in my room to get dressed.

I take a look at my body in my mirror. Just looking at it makes me feel disgusted.

I take the razor and put it to the skin on my hips. I drag the blade along my skin created the new scar to my skin. I watch as the blood pours out. I get rag and stop the bleeding.

I get ready putting on my binder. God I hated wearing this thing. I put my shirt and pants on. I grab my phone and my bag and I head out the door. Grabbing my skateboard I head to school.

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Once I arrive at school I walk down the hall the find my locker. I put in the combination and put my skateboard in there. I shut my locker and I start to head to first period.

Math is the worse subject ever. The only reason I'm enjoying this class is because I can see El sitting right in the front row.

How did I not recognize her last night at the bridge? Well it was kind dark outside.

She turns her head around and she smiles at me. I smile back and give her a small wave. She waves back and turns back around.

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I start to put my books back in my bag. I was about to leave until I heard someone say something next to me. It was El. "Hey Mike," she said. "Hi," I mumbled back. "I was wondering if you'd want to hang out later," she said.

She wants to hang out with me. Finally someone will hang out with me and not be a total dick. "Sure," I said,"I'd like that." "Alright well here's my number," she says as she hands him a piece of paper. "Thanks," I said back. "Well I have to get to my next class," she said," and I was wondering if you'd like to eat lunch together?" She asked. "Sure I'd like that," I said. "Alright well see you at lunch!" She said with excitement.

She started to walk away and all I could think about it her. I think I like her. But would she ever like me? Probably not.

Author's note:
Hey its finally the second chapter. Sorry it took me so long to get it done. I promise the next one will be longer. If there's any mistakes or things that I could have added let me know, or if you have ideas.

-Juno